this is such a huge turn in my life
from the comfy of an office
to a hectic and full of hiccups in a call floor.

life's weird.....
especially mine.

coz am a WEIRDO!

This job hunting thingy is tiring, am i rite?

Am so tired!

It's been a long while
Ahakssss

i'm jobless now
anybody want to offer me a job?
With a pay that is not less than RM1600
contact me thru my emai at demynangel@yahoo.com

hehehehehe (read: am dead serious!)

I'm LEAVING
Seriously.
I AM.

That miracle i was talking about the other day happened today.
Just now, actually.
Thank you so much kiddo.
I owe you a whole lot more than you do to me.
Thank you.

Aduhai.
Rupanya pakaian untuk perasmian hari ni, one man dress. Together with all the pingats.
Shit!
Aku tak dapat pun kad jemputan tu.
Same goes with dinner tonite.
Aku tak dapat.
Nasib baik Kak Shah fax kat aku 2 hari lepas.
Saje nak boikot tempat keje aku, ke?
Aku tahu la boss aku baru tukar.
Ke, saja nak boikot aku?
Nampak sangat macam aku tak competent.
Damn!
Aku explain kat boss aku, aku tak dapat pun kad jemputan tu.
And nasib baik dia pun kata, dia tak pernah ternampak kad tu atas meja dia.
Nasib baik.

No.
There's no miracle that happens today.
No matter how many time i wished for it.
No matter how hard i closed my eyes.
Miracle is not stopping by here, today.
And most probably tomorrow will be the same as today.
Pity me.
Poor me.

Desperados.
So full of them today.
Makes me sick. And annoyed.
And laugh too.

Nak cerita pasal apa hari ni, yer?
Hmmmm.....

Jaafar Onn came to my office to do a 'cooking demonstration'.
Remind me of our trip to Kuala Terengganu.
We are jammed packed in a satria. Me, abg. wan, lennie, icha n halim.
At Kuantan, we listen to Radio Malaysia Pahang and he's a guest for a program encouraging Malaysian to eat fresh water fish.
Then, he was asked by the DJ, what's his favorite fish.
And he answers : "Ikan talapia merah la" in his way of talking.
O MY GOD!
We're laughing our heads off in the car.
We are bored at that time and all of us were intensely listening to the radio.
I miss that good 'ol time.
Sometimes.

What a ridiculous question.
And you are expecting a straight answer.
Are you out of your mind?
I think you are, that is the reason why you asked me that question, don't you?
God gives you brain so that you can use them.
Not abuse them.
Got me?

The bad and the ugly.
And I'm hungry.
Really hungry till my head hurts.
I want to go home. Now.

Boss aku guna ASUS P535.
Baru dapat semalam and dia suruh aku charging sampai full tadi.
Dah sudah full, aku browse la dulu phone tu.
Ahakssss.....
Mengujakan deria takbur aku la kalau aku guna fon tu.
Aku nak jadik YDP jugakla macam nih.
Ha ha ha.

"MY LIFE IS 75% Happy"


[x]You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[] You have your own room.
[] You own a cell phone.
[] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] You have a swimming pool
T 0 T A L: 2

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[] There is a computer/ laptop in your room
[x] You have never been beaten up
[ ] You never cry
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert
T 0 T A L: 6

[x] You have over 50 friends on friendster
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You enjoy having a friendster.
[x] You get allowance
[x] You collect something normal
[] You look foward to going to school
[x] You don't wish you were someone else
[x] You play a sport.
[] You do something after school.
T 0 T A L: 7

[x] You usually don't fight with your parent(s).
[x] You are happy with your appearance
[x] You aren't self-concious
[x] You have friends
T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[x] You are happy with your life
[x] You have a special relationship with God
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[x] You dont have any enemies....not that you know of anyways
[x] You are generally a nice person.
T 0 T A L: 7
SUMTOTAL:25
Now count your numbers and multiply by three. Then title this "MY LIFE IS % Happy"

Curik ni daripada blog budak kecik kat friendster. Aku tak tahu dia dapat dari mana. :)

Apasal lately kepala aku asyik sakit jer?
Nak kata pressure kerja, tak jugak.
Sakit betul la.
Heran lak aku.

Reading Fourth Procedure now.
Malam tadi sempat berapa paragraph jer aku baca.
Pastu ngantuk giler.
Sharp kul 8 malam, aku dah hanyut.
Badan letih baru lepas kebah demam.
Ni pun kepala aku tgh sakit nih.
Terbayang-bayang lak ikan puyu 2 ekor yg Love dapat mancing hari Ahad tuhari.
Nyesal lak aku tak siang and goreng macam dia mintak.
Sorry ye yang, orang termalas lak tuhari.
Nanti balik kampung lagi, awak mancing lagi, nanti orang siang and goreng, okay?
I love u.
:-)

Kenapa tastebud aku rasa tak sedap nih?
Hmmmmm...........

i loved to love u.

:)

If I'm alive and well, will you be there to hold my hand?

I cried.
Yes, I cried.
The feeling is different when u resigned than your boss got transfered somewhere else.
Moreover when you are his PA and you just work with him for 4 months.
And you really like your boss.
Really really fond of him coz he's just like a father to you.


Tuan, all the best kat pejabat baru.
Selamat bekerja dengan kakitangan baru.
Thank you so very much sebab tak pernah marah saya.
Walau sekali pun.

Sincerely,
Husna.

You and me, we come from different world.
Totally different.
The way we brought up is like earth and another galaxy million light years away.
Let's overcome that and make peace.
Deal?

Giler buat aku marah and also buat aku bosan.
Degil
Aku kata hari ni tak boleh, tak boleh la.
Ape ke bangang sangat tak faham bahasa nih?
Nak aku cakap korea ker?
Aku tak reti.
Ahakssss..

Patutla aku rasa tak sedap hati.
Rupanya nak jadi camnih.
Saper yg sms aku?
Alahai la.

Cinta by Melly and Kris (but aku lagi suka yg Jac n Misha nyanyi, coz i love Jac's voice, he he..)

menapak jalan yg menjauh
tentukan arah yg ku mau
tempatan aku pada satu peristiwa
yg membuat hati lara
di dekat engkau aku tenang
sendu matamu penuh tanya
misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita

reff: cinta, tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa
aku junjung petuahmu
cintai dia yg mencintaiku
hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia
di dekat engkau aku tenang
sendu matamu penuh tanya
misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita

repeat reff

cinta biar saja ada
yg terjadi biar saja terjadi
bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita
cerita tentang yg meninggalkan
dan yg ditinggalkan
cinta

Aku selesema.
Masuk hari ni dah 3 hari.
Masa hari rabu tu aku dah terasa dah.
Sekali semalam langsung takleh bangun. MC terus semalam.

Happy belated birthday, Lennie.
Sorila lambat wish semalam.
Aku tido the whole day semalam.
Wahhhhhhh...... Giler happening birthday bash tahun ni.
Celebrate kat Sabah lagik.
Eheh.

Haha!
How small this earth that we live in!
Husna?
Macam familiar je nama tuh!
Sekali memang familiar daaaa....
Ha ha ha.....

Alahai la En. Kamarul.
I want my pizza.
MY PIZZA!
:D

Tak.
Aku bukan kata kau berpura pura intelligent.
Tapi masalahnya, memang obvious kau kurang intelligent.
You are making a fool of yourself, my friend.
Tolonglah.

Malam tadi gaduh lagi.Pasal benda kecik pun boleh jadi gaduh..Pastu siap tulis note utk aku baca.Luahan hati dia.Selama ni aku tak pernah balas pun note dia, tapi i've had enough.Aku bukan yang macam dulu.Ikut je apa yang dia kata.Aku dah penat.Asyik aku je yang mengalah.Asyik aku je yang kene jaga perasaan dia.Aku takde perasaan ke?
Dan dia pun dah perasan, aku dah tak macam dulu.Aku dah pandai melawan.Nak tahu kenapa?Aku dah bosan.Sungguh. Aku betul betul dah bosan.Jangan sampai aku ignore.Kalau aku dah ignore, kau memang tak wujud dalam hidup aku lagi dah.Kau dah invisible.Ada, but i don't see you and i don't want to see you.Tolong jangan sampai tahap ni.Aku mintak tolong sangat.Bukan aku tak pernah cakap.Aku dah muak nak cakap.
Please.

Was watching Ghostrider's trailer just now.
Can't wait for the movie to be release here.
Pasal ada orang dah janji ngan aku nak belanja aku tengok movie nih.
YEAY!

Last saturday, i watched the hills have eyes after watching trailer of the same title only its sequel (the hills have eyes 2).
I was expecting a movie that will scare the wits out of me, but alas, i was disappointed, again.
It was a story bout a family going on a trip to California, got stranded on the desert of New Mexico after the guy at the last stop give them a 'detour'. And also a bunch of radioactive effected people living in the desert who practices cannibalism, as they dont have anything else to eat except human flesh.
BUGGER!
But i like one part though, the part where Lizard sucks Doug's wife (i forgot her name) breast. Yummy!
Hehehehehe.....

Aku benci la keadaan macam nih.
Tapi the possibility for her to do that ada jugak.
But i cannot trust the other person 100%.
Pening la.
Suka bikin aku kusut.

Fuck!

Aku rasa macam rugi lak tak pegi Terengganu. If i knew that this shit will be like this, i prefer Terengganu. Damn boring. If it's in Terengganu, at least i can hear the waves hit the beach. Tenang sikit. And also, boleh aku flirts ngan tourist kat pantai. Ha ha. And aku juga boleh dapat bespren baru, bak kata Ita. Iye lah, dah cerita tidur sebilik. Satgi karang, semua benda nak buat ngan bespren baru, dah lupa dia. Hahahaha.... Mana mungkin bebeh, kamu gebu, dia papan lapis. Kamu lazat, dia tulang. Hmmmm..... Nyam nyam nyam......

Kenapa la aku lak yg dikaitkan ngan dia?
Tah hape hape la.
Jangan bikin aku kusut la.

Engkau betul-betul buat aku hilang perasaan terhadap kau.
Betul.

Aku pergi kenduri rumah E-jump semalam.
Congrats my fren, sungguh tidak kusangka.....
Eheh.
Ko dah nak nampak macam normal balik dah
Tapi tembam di pipi masih ada.
Haha......
Kau tak akan jadi normal semula dah.
Caya la cakap aku nih.

I'm past bluffing.
Let's get serious.