"In response of below post"
Try to be more active and stop neglecting everything.

~kernymi

bila nak sampai 1000 post ni?

kalau update blog pun 2 3 bulan sekali

ha ha ha

He did what he promise me he'll do

I love you

:-)

Hello admin, is this blog already dead?

~kernymi

Bachelorette party la sangatttt......

NOT gonna happen..... :P

Is that suppose to be funny?

kena ke letak perbuatan yang kau buat sambil menulis?

kau rasa cool?

aku rasa kau poyo

benda tu buat orang hilang fokus baca apa yang kau tulis

sangat poyo n benci aku rasa kalau baca blog then ada somting like this fucking bastard - *big grin* then sambung another paragraph

Vertical Horizon - You're A God

She, is a stranger

You and I have history or don't you remember?

Nak gak cuti esok.......

Agak2, kalau aku ponteng, nampak sangat tak, eh?

he he he he.......

Ui.....

Mimpi malam tadi adalah sangat ngeri......

Petang jumaat dan pagi sabtu = bahagia.

Bila dia sentuh kepala aku, dengan senyuman hanya untuk aku, pandangan matanya hanya untuk aku, walau KLIA runtuh sekalipun, aku bahagia.

Bila waktunya hanya untuk aku, segala dirinya hanya untuk aku, aku bahagia.

Cepatlah hari rabu, aku rindu dia......

Haha

Show hari rabu ni ada kul 11.30 je.

Premier ke?

Aku benci la phone directory yang baru ni. Number extension tak cukup, nama orang takde dalam directory. Bangang je. Aku lagi suka directory yg lama. Lagi senang hidup aku.

Cruel. I know. Leave me alone.

Manic depression.

Bipolar.

Penat

pagi2 dah buat aku hilang mood. dah buat aku mencarut. kenapa selfish sangat? kenapa sebab kau, orang lain pun kena susah. kenapa orang macam ni kena hidup?

we girls, we dont rank or rate...... we just love...

and here I thought we are the complicated beings, now you have proven that we are not, you all are the ones who is complicated.....

nak carik baru laaaa.......

So what if i hate my boss?

Eh, kenapa sekarang macam rajin nak update blog?

Sebab boleh update kat opis?

Tapi macam tak relevan je.

And this, is my tree of life.....

The more you talk, the more lies you have to tell. Stop talking or else, you cant get out from the hole you dig yourself.

Aku tak pernah ada niat nak sambung balik. Dan aku tak nak pun. Jangan salah anggap. I just do not want enemies in life. Tu je. Doesnt mean that aku baik ngan kau, aku nak kau balik. Sekali cakap, sudah la. Tak payah aku nak ulang2, k?

kalau dah ada 3 4 orang yg tak tahan nak dekat dengan engkau, masih lagi salah mereka?

Pernah fikir mungkin kau yg punca orang tak nak dekat?

Pernah?

Giler ujub engkau ni. Pening kepala aku. Pastu nak kutuk2 diorang tak nak dekat dengan kau.

Ak elleeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... Ape ke benak sangat ko ni?

ha ha ha

Genting - 5/6/2011

Singgah sebentar. Membuat penat.

cant stop u from googling my name
but i can stop you from reading my blog.
ha ha haaaaa......

image taken from : http://www.flickr.com/photos/frisbeegirl/138937406/

jika kau yg ku cari....
mengapa ada rindu dihati....

kalau bukan berkasih ngan mu...
mengapa pula kita bertemu :))

1. The smile that uplifts…
The feeling that flows thru…
The touch of ur presence..
The very reason im here…
How can I not appreciate …

2. as u see beauty in my presence,,,
as u listen to words of my heart..
as u sense it ur eyes,,,
as it glide thru yr veins,,,
how can u ever deny...
my very existence....

3. It is a story i will tell..
a story worth telling
many times...

a story of u and me,,
a story of emotion...
a story of our poetic verses..

how our words bonded us...
make us be one...
its the story, our story...

I cried. Selepas ayah Adam, you are the first man yang buat i menangis. I thought my heart is dead. Rupanya belum lagi. i love you.

"you pernah kena dump tak?" "tak pernah lagi, y?" "well, there's always a first for everything." "y? u dumping me? u know, even if u dump me pun, i'll always come back, so, there's no point doing it"

B,
thank you so much for everything. the laugh, the fun, the talk. and most importantly, the LOVE. and im sorry for hurting you, for making you feel not special anymore. when u said have a happy life, when im stepping out from the train, i thought you are kidding. well, obviously now, you are not.

if i knew, i'll hug u longer n wont let go. ha ha.. selfish giler, kan?

OMG. Just listen to the opening of the film soundtrack! Need i say more?

If you wanna get into my pants, just say it. You don't have to pretend and tell me that you love me. Heck, u can't even answer when i asked if you are sure it's love and not lust. Boys!

mana ada orang suka kena ignore, kan? kalau kau dah tak nak aku contact kau, bagitau. senang. kau takkan buat aku rasa cam terhegeh hegeh. padahal aku tak pun. memang la aku kisah, kalau kau ignore, tapi kalau kau bagitau jangan contact, swear to god, aku takkan contact dah. please la weh, life is simple, jangan la complicatekan benda simple. hidup sekali je, kan? syurga nanti dah eternity, that doesnt count as life.

Kebas.
Numb.

it ended.
finally

Dah habis the allocated 5GB?
Camne nak tengok redtube camni?
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahah....

Takpe, esok reset balik, kan CELCOM kan?

remembrance

suke tak tengok Fergie pakai very short plaid n buat upskirt?

ha ha ha

ada lagi 9.

konon2 benchmark ye?
well, 900 is an achievement, dont you think so?

Giler babi rasa nak marah ni...
Tapi aku nak marah ape n pada siapa?
Marah kat babi je la, boleh?

Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahah

Saya sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....................

Miss me, eh?
Padan muka....

You dont have the privilege to play hard to get with me.
I'm the only one yang boleh, okay?

13 to go. tapi malasnya ya amat. kadang kadang lupa. apa cer?

tak boleh embedding? takpela. tak kisah pun. :-)

Sakit giler la, bangsat!

Abandoned

Kenapa aku rasa kau macam menipu aku, eh?

Rindu

Do you see me cooking for you?

After this, 20 more to go.

Yeay!

Dig.
All you want.

Dig more.
Satisfy yourself.

sikit-sikit, salah aku
sikit-sikit, salah aku.

Kau sempurna sangat ke?

Baby,

Thank you so much for everything.
You define what love making is for me.
I had so much love. And fun.

I love you. Completely.

Listen, past will remain past. I DO NOT HAVE feeling towards you anymore. None. Stop asking, because you will hear the same answer u heard 2 years back. I'ts not going to change. Be it my feelings or my answer. Face it. And face it like a man. Please.

U keep on waiting for me because i'm your first love? BULLSHIT! Didn't i tell you before, i wont fall for this kind of shitty talk? What makes u think that i've changed? Is it because i treat u nicely just now? Owh for fuck's sake, im just trying to be civil. That's all. And that's that. End of story. Fullstop.

"Malas nak ganggu awak je..saya kan kalau boleh setiap masa nak dengar suara awak.. ye la selagi awak boleh dengar suara saya, kalau takleh, mesti awak miss giler kat saya, kan?"

Sayang, kalau saya tau nak jadi macam ni, saya takkan layan mengantuk saya malam tu....

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! SO MUCH!

Sayang

I love you so much.
So much!

You know who you are, Syaifful Anwar Salam....
Ihiksss.....

Sayang
Saya sayang awak. Sangat.
Jangan hilang.
EVER!

Kenangan.

Travie, would u like to be my boyfriend?
He he he

I want my old Syaifful back.
Do u think it'll happen?

Aku mimpi dalam mimpi subuh tadi.
Aku mimpi aku cerita pada dia mimpi aku 2 hari lepas.
Thats how much i miss him
Thats also how much aku nak baca buku itu.

:-(

4 biji kurma
bihun sup tawar
a mug of apple juice
a mug of air kosong


i missed buka puasa with MY family.....
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Alhamdulillah

12 July 2010

Maybe it is a curse. But whatever it is, im loving it. Hehehehehehe.....

Twisted Ankle

Twisted ankle.

Allah bayar cash for my mischief yesterday....

Ampunkan hambaMu ini, Ya Allah.....

The much hyped GCB is NOT that great. To my tastebud la. Tak tau la orang lain. maybe sebab aku memang kurang gemar burger ayam kot. Should stick to quarter pounder or big mac la. I love beef patties.... hehehehehe

Kenangan kat bilik section 2, Shah Alam

Tak update blog coz dah tak feel eager macam muda2 dulu la....

Age is catching up...

hahahahaha

sungguh gampang statement itu.......

Nak tengok Freddy Krueger....
Nape takde yg nak temankan aku?

VIETNAM!!!

Enough said.....
I'm so happy n bersyukur giler ngan hidup aku sekarang....
Alhamdulillah.....

:)

WHAT?



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Kalau kau fikir dengan cara konon konon kau salah sms tu aku nak layan, you are dead wrong! Plastic tu dah lama berkubur, okay? Tak kuasa aku nak bazirkan kredit aku untuk orang yg sangat tak significant dalam hidup aku macam kau. Kau ingat, aku macam typicals yang lain? Salah sungguh telahan anda. Pastu, dah aku tak layan, termalu sendiri, boleh lak hantar sms kat aku, cakap sorry yang kau tersalah sms. Ape ko ingat aku baru semalam guna mobile phone ke, apa? Mengong sungguh la.


Envious. Suka compete antara satu sama lain. Kalau compete untuk benda baik, contohnya sape belajar lagi super, aku tak kisah, ni nak compete benda remeh. Pasal sape tengok movie dulu pun nak compete, tu aku takleh nak terima. Bapakla bangang aku rasa. Pastu cakap belakang. Depan punyala manis mulut, sampai 1 colony semut boleh hidup kat bibir, belakang, penuh ngan segala macam benda tajam, kan? Pelik betul la aku. Kenapa? Human nature ke? Tapi kan ke kau boleh curb perasaan tu? Kalau ye pun kau hasad dengki sangat, simpan sendiri sudah. Jangan tunjuk kat aku. Konon kawan baik, but a minute she left you, terus keluar segala macam jenis pisau untuk kau tikam belakang dia. Syukur kau bukan dalam BFF list aku. :D

Ketumbit

Dah 6 bulan.
Alhamdulillah

Dah 6 bulan.
Alhamdulillah

Langsung senyap, kan? Sebab aku bagitau ape yang aku rasa. Kata nak aku jujur, jujur la tu. Jujur aku, kalau kau menyimpang, memang kau akan rasa sakit hati yang amat sangat. But remember, YOU wished for it. Aku tak nak menghampakan orang, sebab I do believe in karma. Sebab memang ada pembalasan, kan? If not here, kat sana nanti. Itu memang pasti. What goes around, comes around, yang pipih datang melayang, yang bulat datang bergolek. Nak lagi? Cari sendiri.

Taking advantages. Tapi aku tak salahkan kau, sebab kalau aku jadi kau pun, aku akan ambik kesempatan jugak. Sape tak nak, benda sedap, and dia willing je, kan? Kau ayat 2, 3 patah perkataan, panggil sayang 2, 3 kali, boleh dapat. Senang sangat. And dia, aku no comment. Sebab aku rasa aku takde hak nak judge dia. Cuma engkau je yang buat aku terkilan sangat. Susah sangat ke nak loyal. Kau kata kau sayang dia, and kau nak spend the rest of your life dengan dia, tapi kau hurt dia. Sayang ke tu namanya? And kau hurt dia dengan tidur dengan perempuan lain pulak tu. Dia mengamuk and mintak putus, kau marah dia balik. Bodoh piang tahap dewa langit ke-18 betul la kau ni. Cuba kalau dia tidur ngan lelaki lain, confirm kau tak sudi nak tengok muka dia lagi, kan? Dan kau boleh bagi alasan, kau lelaki, takpe. Ape? Lelaki tak masuk neraka ke?

Korang dua dua kawan aku, tapi kau kena ingat, aku perempuan, and eventho’ aku kawan ngan kau dulu, and even ko tak pernah nampak, tapi sisterhood tu sentiasa ada babe. And kau tak kesian ke kat kawan kita yang matchmake kan korang, bila korang jadi macam ni? Sekarang, nak hang out sesama pun dah takde rasa, kan?

To the both of you, in case you read this, this is how I feel. This is what I want to say, but then, kalau aku cakap pun, it wont mean a thing pun, kan?

Confirm, copy paste. Hahahahaha..... Tah kat mana agaknya dia jumpa, then claim tulis sendiri, idea sendiri. My ass! Kalau bangang, buat cara bangang. Jangan poyo. Kan dah kantoi sendiri. Ntah faham tah tidak ape yang dia paste tu agaknya.

reading...... reading.......

YOU LOST!


Hahahahahahaha...... Padan muka!

Ha? Ape? Fire Drill?
Muahahahahahahaha……..
Kata “super”model kan? Nampak camera, kena la pose! He he he

Tadi, aku baca archive aku. Mak aih….. Giler lama dah aku tak menulis panjang2 macam zaman memula berblog dulu. Dan lagi satu, giler poyo aku rasa ayat2 aku dulu. Rasa macam, pesal poyo sangat aku, tulis2 macam ni, nih? Muahahahahaha….. Inilah yg dinamakan mengutuk diri sendiri. Ye la, selama ni duk puji diri sendiri je, kan? Sesekali kena gak kutuk, baru la tersedar. Hua hua hua….

Bila aku baca balik ape yg aku tulis kat para atas tu pun, aku baca balik, terasa gak macam ada bahang poyo di situ. Ha ha ha…

Semalam aku tengok PHOBIA 2, layan giler ah cerita tu, especially the last shorties. Demmmmm…… Best giler laaaaa….. Dalam duk ketawa2 pun, still boleh buat jantung aku skip a beat bila sampai part terkejut. Serius best.

Kau ingat aku tak tahu?

UNWRITTEN

Last wednesday was the last straw.... Dah cukup sabar aku selama ni.... No more. NO MORE.


CRAWLING IN MY SKIN, THIS WOUND THEY WILL NOT HEAL

CLASSIC

Euphoria

So, that's how it is eh? Okay, if you say so.

Bila aku tak gemar someone, I tend to be annoying towards him or her. I mean, very annoying. It’s not a test, to see whether you are patience with me or not, I am like this. So, bila kau rasa cara aku YM, SMS ataupun bercakap mcam nak tak nak, or aku reply dengan ayat yg menyakitkan hati, stop. Because you should know by now yang aku tak suka kau. You don’t expect me to tell you straight that I don’t like you, get out of my life now, do you? Aku pun tak diajar untuk kurang ajar macam tu. Dan aku dah malas nak buat-buat suka kat orang yang aku tak suka sebab simpati. Malas.


Mengaku je la that u r married, ape susah sangat? We are not born yesterday la weh, we knew. Saje je layan perasan ko yg konon2 belum kawen tu. Ingat aku ngan kawan aku ni bangang sangat ke?

LANGKAWI WAS A BLAST!

Dan saya dengan ini merasmikan.

Kenapa aku rajin nak layan? Sebab kesian kot. Takde org lain nak layan dia. Even org yg dia duk jaja kata besfren tu pernah confess kat aku and kawan baik aku yang dia pun meluat ngan perangai ko. Perasan semua org nak kat ko. Taste kemain lagi. Hahahaha.... Nak je aku suruh cermin diri sendiri. Tapi aku ni berakal lagi. Sebab kalau aku layan kau punya idiocy, aku pun serupa. Idiot.

Sungguh pathetic aku rasa raya aku tahun ni. Tapi raya tahun lepas lagi worse. At least tahun ni aku dapat terima beraya kat kajang. Sikit je la. And aku pakai baju kurung on the first day of raya. And doa aku makbul, dapat gak aku mandi sunat raya tahun ni.

Aku dah plan nak balik kampung khamis n jumaat. Kenapa jadi pulak trainingnyaaaa..... Aku nak makan halwa maskat. Aku nak makan halwa maskat. Aku nak makan halwa maskat.

Nampaknya esok la aku balik kampung camni. Balik hari. Giler ah.

Selamat Hari Raya

Nak cari buku ni kat kedai Uncle dulu la. Kalau takde, baru beli kat Kino or MPH. Tak sabar. Tak sabar.

Trigger happy
Trigger happy

Got an AK47 well you know it makes me feel alright
Got an Uzi by my pillow, helps me sleep a little better at night
There's no feeling any greater
Than to shoot first and ask questions later
Now I'm trigger happy,(wooooooo) trigger happy every day

Well, you can't take my guns away, I got a constitutional right
Yeah, I gotta be ready if the Commies attack us tonight
Ba Ba Ba
I'll blow their brains out with my Smith and Wesson
That ought to teach them all a darn good lesson
Now I'm trigger happy,(wooooooo) trigger happy every day

(Oh yeah, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh baby, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh I'm so)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away

Oh, I accidently shot daddy last night in the den (Shot daddy in the den)
I mistook him in the dark for a drug-crazed Nazi again
(drug-crazed Nazi again)
Now why'd you have to get so mad?
It was just a lousy flesh wound, Dad
You know, I'm trigger happy,(woooooooo) trigger happy every day

Oh, I still haven't figured out the safety on my rifle yet
Little Fluffy took a round, better take him to the vet
I filled that kitty cat so full of lead
We'll have to use him for a pencil instead
Well, I'm trigger happy, trigger happy every day

(Oh yeah, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh baby, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh I'm so)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away

Come on and grab your ammo
What have you got to lose?
We'll get all liquored up
And shoot at anything that moves

Got a brand new semi-automatic weapon with a laser sight
(shoot to kill now shoot to kill)
Oh, I'm prayin' somebody tries to break in here tonight
(shoot to kill now shoot to kill)
I always keep a Magnum in my trunk
You better ask yourself, do you feel lucky, punk?
Because I'm trigger happy, trigger happy every day

(Oh yeah, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh baby, I'm)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
(Oh I'm so)trigger, trigger happy
Yes I'm trigger, trigger happy
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away
Better watch out, punk, or I'm gonna have to blow you away

Cacaw! Cacaw! Rawr!

Padan muka. Kan tu sakit hati. Sape suruh buat aku sakit hati dulu. Wahahahahahaha….
Revenge IS sweet!

District 9 was a blast! Tak percaya, pergi tengok sendiri

Not answering a call tak sama dengan rejecting a call ye? Sila pastikan anda tidak dianggap bodoh dengan kesalahan di atas. Dan sila pastikan juga you don’t simply put words in my mouth, especially things that will hurt you in the end. Stupid!

Dr Feelgood – Stupidity

(as sung by the current dr feelgood line-up, october 1998)

'a' chord on guitar
4 bars drums
1st verse: vocals, guitar, drums only. no bass.

All around the world
Every boy and girl
Come along with me
That's - a stupidity

All around the world
Every boy and girl
Take a lesson from me
That's - a stupidity

- guitar solo - 8 bars -

Papa says I look so crazy (lee sang 'silly')
Mama says I look a fool
I don't mind their criticism
They do that every day in school

So come along with me
See how much fun it can be
Watch it on tv
That's - a stupidity

- guitar solo - 8 bars -

So come along with me
See how much fun it can be
Watch it on tv
That's - a stupidity

So come along with me
See how much fun it can be
Watch it on tv
That's - a stupidity

All around the world
Every boy and girl
Come along with me
That's - a stupidity

Kau ingat, kau buat macam tu aku nak kesian? Lagi meluat ada la. Ape kau takde kerja lain ke selain dari cari simpati orang? Kau nak ke orang ada dengan kau sebab simpati semata-mata tanpa ada sebab lain? Get a grip on your life la wey, kau tak penat ke? Aku yang tengok ni yang penat dan rimas. Kalau orang dah kata tak boleh and tak nak kat kau tu, terima je la, ape susah sangat? Tak boleh terima rejection? Kalau hidup dalam dunia sendiri, memang la macam tu. Nasib la, kan?

On a lighter note, let’s sing this song together, okay?

Sing For The Moment – EMINEM

[Verse #1]
These ideas are nightmares for white parents
Whose worst fear is a child with dyed hair and who likes earrings
Like whatever they say has no bearing
Its so scary in a house that allows no swearing
To see him walking around with his headphones blaring
Alone in his own zone, cold and he dont care
He's a problem child, what bothers him all comes out
When he talks about his fuckin' dad walkin out
Cos he hates him so bad that he blocks him out
But if he ever saw him again, he'd prolly knock him out
His thoughts are whacked, he's mad so he's talkin' back
Talkin black, brainwashed from rock and rap
He sags his pants, 2 rags and a stocking cap
His step-father hit him so he socked him back
And broke his nose, this house is a broken home
There's no control, he just lets his emotions go
Come on...

[Chorus:]
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me,just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

[Verse #2]
Entertainment is danger, intertwine it with gansters
In the land of the killers, a sinner's mind is a sanctum
Only you're unholy, only have one homey
Only this gun, lonely, cuz don't anyone know me
But everybody just feels like they can relate
I guess words are a motherfucker, they can be great
Or they can be great, or even worse, they can teach hate
Its like kids hang on every single statement we make
Like they worship us, plus all the stores ship us platinum
Now how the fuck did this metamorphasis happen?
From standin' on corners and porches just rappin'
To havin' a fortune, no more kissin' ass
But then these critics crucify you, journalists try to burn you
Fans turn on you, attorney's all gonna turn it to
To get their hands on every dime you have
They want you to lose your mind every time you mad
So they can try to make you out to look like a loose canon
You need to spew, dont hesitate to produce air-guns
Thats why these prosecutors wanna convict me
Swiftly just to get me offa these streets quickly
But all their kids been listen'n to me religiously
So i'm signing cds while police fingerprint me
They're for the judges daughter, but his grudge is against me
If i'm such a fuckin' menace, this shit doesnt make sense, Pete
It's all political, if my music is literal and i'm a criminal,
How the fuck can i raise a little girl?
I couldn't. i wouldn't be fit to
You're full of shit too, Guerrera, that was a fist that hit you!

[Chorus]

[Verse #3]
They say music can alter moods and talk to you
But can it load a gun for you and cock it too?
Well if it can, then the next time you assault a dude
Just tell the judge it was my fault, and i'll get sued
See what these kids do, is hear about us toting pistols
And they want to get one, cos they think the shit's cool
Not knowin' we're really just protectin' ourselves
We're entertainers, of course this shit's affecting our sales
You ignoramus. but music is reflection of self
We just explain it, and then we get our cheques in the mail
It's fucked up ain't it, how we can come from practically nothin'
To bein' able to have any fuckin' thing that we wanted
It's why we sing for these kids that don't have a thing
Except for a dream and a fucking rap magazine
Who post pinup pictures on their walls all day long
Idolise their favourite rappers and know all they songs
Or for anyone who's ever been through shit in they lives
So they sit and they cry at night, wishing they die
Till they throw on a rap record, and they sit and they vibe
We're nothing to you, but we're the fuckin' shit in their eyes
That's why we sieze the moment, and try to freeze it and own it
Squeeze it and hold it, 'cos we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through out lyrics that you hear in our songs
And we can

Kau ingat, kau buat macam tu aku nak kesian? Lagi meluat ada la. Ape kau takde kerja lain ke selain dari cari simpati orang? Kau nak ke orang ada dengan kau sebab simpati semata-mata tanpa ada sebab lain? Get a grip on your life la wey, kau tak penat ke? Aku yang tengok ni yang penat dan rimas. Kalau orang dah kata tak boleh and tak nak kat kau tu, terima je la, ape susah sangat? Tak boleh terima rejection? Kalau hidup dalam dunia sendiri, memang la macam tu. Nasib la, kan?

On a lighter note, let’s sing this song together, okay?

Sing For The Moment – EMINEM

[Verse #1]
These ideas are nightmares for white parents
Whose worst fear is a child with dyed hair and who likes earrings
Like whatever they say has no bearing
Its so scary in a house that allows no swearing
To see him walking around with his headphones blaring
Alone in his own zone, cold and he dont care
He's a problem child, what bothers him all comes out
When he talks about his fuckin' dad walkin out
Cos he hates him so bad that he blocks him out
But if he ever saw him again, he'd prolly knock him out
His thoughts are whacked, he's mad so he's talkin' back
Talkin black, brainwashed from rock and rap
He sags his pants, 2 rags and a stocking cap
His step-father hit him so he socked him back
And broke his nose, this house is a broken home
There's no control, he just lets his emotions go
Come on...

[Chorus:]
Sing with me, sing for the year
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
Sing with me,just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away

[Verse #2]
Entertainment is danger, intertwine it with gansters
In the land of the killers, a sinner's mind is a sanctum
Only you're unholy, only have one homey
Only this gun, lonely, cuz don't anyone know me
But everybody just feels like they can relate
I guess words are a motherfucker, they can be great
Or they can be great, or even worse, they can teach hate
Its like kids hang on every single statement we make
Like they worship us, plus all the stores ship us platinum
Now how the fuck did this metamorphasis happen?
From standin' on corners and porches just rappin'
To havin' a fortune, no more kissin' ass
But then these critics crucify you, journalists try to burn you
Fans turn on you, attorney's all gonna turn it to
To get their hands on every dime you have
They want you to lose your mind every time you mad
So they can try to make you out to look like a loose canon
You need to spew, dont hesitate to produce air-guns
Thats why these prosecutors wanna convict me
Swiftly just to get me offa these streets quickly
But all their kids been listen'n to me religiously
So i'm signing cds while police fingerprint me
They're for the judges daughter, but his grudge is against me
If i'm such a fuckin' menace, this shit doesnt make sense, Pete
It's all political, if my music is literal and i'm a criminal,
How the fuck can i raise a little girl?
I couldn't. i wouldn't be fit to
You're full of shit too, Guerrera, that was a fist that hit you!

[Chorus]

[Verse #3]
They say music can alter moods and talk to you
But can it load a gun for you and cock it too?
Well if it can, then the next time you assault a dude
Just tell the judge it was my fault, and i'll get sued
See what these kids do, is hear about us toting pistols
And they want to get one, cos they think the shit's cool
Not knowin' we're really just protectin' ourselves
We're entertainers, of course this shit's affecting our sales
You ignoramus. but music is reflection of self
We just explain it, and then we get our cheques in the mail
It's fucked up ain't it, how we can come from practically nothin'
To bein' able to have any fuckin' thing that we wanted
It's why we sing for these kids that don't have a thing
Except for a dream and a fucking rap magazine
Who post pinup pictures on their walls all day long
Idolise their favourite rappers and know all they songs
Or for anyone who's ever been through shit in they lives
So they sit and they cry at night, wishing they die
Till they throw on a rap record, and they sit and they vibe
We're nothing to you, but we're the fuckin' shit in their eyes
That's why we sieze the moment, and try to freeze it and own it
Squeeze it and hold it, 'cos we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through out lyrics that you hear in our songs
And we can

I did it. Yeay! Yes, memang la rasa guilty, tapi dari lagi lama aku hypocrite and menipu, baik settlekan je. Kan? Kan? Kan?

Ok, tadi my first mistake. Damn la. Macam mana aku boleh lupa nak buat copy? Mengong betul la. Nasib baik dia ok je, tapi aku rasa dia sedikit marah jugak la, sebab dia jenis yg perfectionist and jaga reputation. I’m so sorry Mr. Wong, I lupa betul nak buat copy tadi. Maybe sebab dalam my mind, fikir I have to send this report as soon as possible to PGB. I’m sorry.

Do I look like I care?


Kenapa semua org tanya camana kerja ngan boss2 aku ni? What is it with them, my boss I mean? Teruk sangat ke diorang ni? Ok je aku tengok, and I feel ok too, coz I’m the one who worked with them. I still haven’t encountered any problem. Yet. But seriously, to me, they are ok. So please, stop asking me bout that. If you want to start a conversation with me, find another topic. Coz u r making my boss looks bad in my book. And this is not good. And not cool. Sooooo not cool.

I have to do it. Can’t hold it back any longer. I’ve been telling myself all this while that I could do it, I can manage, just give it some time. Turned out that I can’t, no matter how I try. Guess I don’t tried hard enough, eh?

I’m sorry.