Owh, dia sms aku dulu hari ni. And semalam dia mintak aku call dia.

Ya, aku rindu sangat kat dia. Damn! Kenapa aku rasa macam ni? Kenapa?

Kenapa dia?

Apa yang dia dah buat kat aku ni?

Dan kenapa aku bodoh sangat boleh jadi suka lak kat dia ni?

Hati, kan aku dah kata, jangan suka kat dia.

Kenapa kau degil sangat ni, hati?

Kau tak kesian kat aku ke, hati?

Kalau kau sakit, kan dah aku susah.

Kan kita dah janji, tak nak sakit lagi.

Dah lupa ke?

Kenapa cepat sangat kau lupa ni, hati?

Betul kata Dila Raden sakit kalau suka kat orang tapi kena simpan sorang-sorang. Sakit sangat-sangat.

Especially bila kita jadi tempat orang tu cerita semua benda, sampai dia suka kat pompuan lain pun cerita kat kita. Owh, sakitnya tak terkata, babe. Walaupun kita cakap kat diri kita, jangan suka dia, tapi kalau hati degil, nak buat camana, kan?

Dan itulah yang dia buat kat aku semalam. Sungguh sakit. Tapi nasib baik aku boleh neutralkan balik. Dan bila aku dah neutral, aku bagitau dia yang dia sakitkan hati aku bila dia cakap dia suka perempuan tu, tapi malangnya pompuan tu dah suka kat orang lain. Aku siap bagi galakan and sokongan kat dia carik pompuan lain, sebab aku tau, dia ngan aku, kawan jer.

Hati, kenapa kau mesti suka kat dia? Kenapa kau tak kering and mati je macam masa Khairul tinggalkan aku dulu? Kenapa?

Kenapa kalau nak gi holiday je ngan aku?
Sebab aku fun to be with kalau gi holiday, kan Chah kan?
Sebab dengan aku je ko boleh lupa diri hilang kawalan.
Dan aku pun ngan kau je boleh buat benda yang sama.
Makanya, kene la kite gi holiday sesama, ye tak?
Ngan aku je ko leh gi backpacking.
Yang lain mesti nak bilik ada aircond.
Remember Singapore?
How we finish touring Singapore in a day. most of it by foot?
That was hell of a fun, wasn't it?

2 hari aku berjalan lupa diri. Dan akhirnya, aku menang! Yeay!

I just need a break. Sekejap je pun. 2 hari je.

Rabu lepas aku tengok Twilight ngan besfren aku. Owh, aku kecewa lagi. Kenapa review dia macam best, tapi aku tengok rasa cam nak keluar je dari TGV? And Chah, congratulation to us both for surviving the movie. Seriously. Congrats. Nasib baik tiket RM7 je and it wasn't me who's paying. Hehe... Thank u Chah, n im sorry. But its not entirely my fault pun kan? Kawan kau pun cakap citer tu best, kan? Cerita vampire yang tak seram langsung, kan? Trailer sebelum movie start yg lagi seram, kan?

If Edward were my boyfriend, i wouldnt want him to leave me either. Pompuan retarded pun kompom takkan bagi Edward tinggalkan dia. And oh, Pierre Andre and Khatijah Tan duduk depan aku. Dan paling aku takleh tahan, masa Bella ngan Edward baring kat atas bukit, Khatijah Tan leh cakap "nice cinematography" kat Pierre. Ha ha ha.... Giler awkward tengok cerita ni ngan ur mom.

I am disappointed dengan cerita ni. Nasib baik aku tak tengok ngan Bombaman, Chah. Tapi kalau aku tengok ngan dia, session kitorang dalam bilik confirm will be hotter. Don't u think?

Takde perasaan pun. Aku ingat dah jumpa untuk kali kedua, ada la rasa sesikit. Rupanya masih kosong. NIL. Biarla, takde effect pape pun.

Aku paling pantang orang berhutang liat nak bayar hutang. Memang cam bangsat. Pastu boleh plak bersyarat kalau aku nak balik duit aku. Nak gambar aku naked lak tu. Tak ke bangang namanya tu? Ade pernah aku bagitau aku pernah amik gambar aku naked ke? Ingat aku bimbo ke? Aku tau la aku cantik (ahemmm ahemmm) tapi aku intelligent, occay? Kau ingat aku takleh nak fikir yg kau nak gambar tu untuk blackmail aku later?

Aku duk sabar je seminggu, kan? Sekali aku bagi sms luka kene hiris ngan scalpel kene titik ngan limau nipis, baru kau tau.... Sabar aku ada limit, babe. Aku manusia. Tapi aku tak harap kau faham pun. Sebab kau bangang.

You don't go around calling people sayang when you don't have the slightest feelings towards that person. Nanti sendiri yang susah. Padan muka. What goes around comes around. Ye la kan, takkan benda yang bergolek kalau datang balik dia melayang, kot? Kompom la bergolek balik, kan?

Aku nak tengok Max Payne. Dan ini post aku yg ke 700. Yeay!

The Pretender.

I love this TV series very much.

Subuh khamis tuhari aku jatuh kat toilet. 10 minit lebih aku black out. Lepas sedar tu, aku rasa kepala aku cam pecah. Sakit sangat.

Aku kisah apa pasal ID YM kau. Lori sewa? Pastu dah cerita pasal ID kan? Langsung aku tanya, is it for rent too? Padan muka.

Rose Royce - Wishing on a Star Lyrics


I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a dream
To follow what it means

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a dream
To follow what it means

And I wish on all the rainbows that I see
I wish on all the people who really dream
And I'm wishing on tomorrow, praying it'll comes
And I'm wishing on all the lovin' we've ever done

I never thought I'd see
A time when you would be
So far away from home
So far away from me

Just think of all the moments that we'd spent
I just can't let you go, for me you were meant
And I didn't mean to hurt you, but I know
That in the game of love you reap what you sow

I feel it's time we should make up, baby
I feel it's time for us to get back together
And make the best of things, oh, baby
When we're together, whether or never

I feel it's time we should make up, baby
I feel it's time for us to get back together
And make the best of things, oh, baby
When we're together, whether or never

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a dream
To follow what it means

And I wish on all the rainbows that I see
I wish on all the people we've ever been
And I'm hopin' on all the days to come and days to go
And I'm hopin' on days of lovin' you so

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a star
Oh;oh;oh;
And I wish on all the rainbows that I see

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a star
And I wish on all the rainbows that I see

I'm wishing on a star
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a star
oh, oh, ah, ah

I'm wishing on a star, oh,oh
To follow where you are
I'm wishing on a star, baby
To follow wherever you might be

Wishing in a star, oh, oh
To follow where you are, oh, oh, ah, ah

Aku dah jadi pemalas semula. Copy paste je lirik nak update blog. Heh..
Tapi sebenarnya, aku suka sangat lagu ni, sebab aku suka tengok The 10th Kingdom kat Hallmark. Owh yes, I do love fairy tales.

Catching feelings is a no, let me tell you how it goes.

Ma, bukan Q lupa jalan nak gi umah Mama, masalahnya si Chah ni tak ajak Q pun. Takkan la Q nak gi sana sensorang n sleepover kot? Kena la ada Lennie sama. Segan la Q kalau sorang2.

Takpe, hari sabtu ni Q datang, k? Q tido sana, k?

Chah, do you know how much it hurts? The fact, do you know how much? It hurts like hell. Because it's mine. Guess i never learned, huh? Padan muka aku. Aku still nak letak harapan, yang aku akan dapat balik, tapi nanti rasa cam pathetic la pulak. What should i do?

12simplethings

You fucking bastard. And you, retarded bitch. Don't sms your bf nemore, ye? HELLO! I spent 1 1/2 hours like a fool at LRT Titwangsa and not even a thank you, now you telling me not to sms nemore? Ha ha ha. As if i have all the time in the world kan, hari tu. Aku malas je nak bang dia balik. Too old and too wise for that.


Aku tengok KAMI last sunday ngan 2 of my nephews. Owh, cerita ini sangat sangat best. Sebab aku tak pernah miss tengok dia punya TV series. Dan aku juga meleleh air mata tengok cerita ini. Ini filem melayu pertama yang buat aku nangis dalam wayang. SALUTE!
Air mata aku meleleh sendiri. Mungkin dah makin tua, aku makin emo, kot?

Kau nak mati? Aku dah mati pun. Dan aku nak menangis sangat. Tapi aku tak tahu nak menangis kat bahu siapa. Jadinya aku menangis sendiri.

Aku dah lama sangat tak menangis bersungguh-sungguh meluahkan perasaan aku pada seseorang. Menangis yang keluar semua air mata dan hidung. Dan sambil dipujuk dan dicomfort oleh someone. Not just anybody, somebody yang aku care dan dia juga care tentang aku.

It's dead.
Static.
One straight line.

Max Payne. Marilyn Manson.

Drive me off the mountain
You'll burn
I'll eat your ashes
The impossible we're seducing
Our corpse

I love you
So much you must kill me now

Selamat Hari Raya. Pada orang yang 'ter'baca blog aku.

Kakak aku tengah terkekek kekek ketawa tengok Nana Tanjung 2. Sebab dia kata Waheeda comel and Jehan Miskin cantik. WHAT?

Aku rindu W580i aku.

Bilik? Aku ingat dia nak jumpa aku tanpa ada adegan dalam bilik. Rupanya nak jumpa aku dalam bilik terus. Tanpa ada keinginan untuk keluar. Baring baring je dalam bilik. Sambil apply teori dalam KamaSutra.

"Selamat Hari Raya."
"Selamat Hari Raya. And I'm sorry for everything."
"Shut up!"

Aku confuse, letak noktah sebelum atau selepas quote? And you call yourself writer? Well, i never did. I'm a typist.

Well, aku pun nak mellow mellow hari raya ni. Walaupun orang kata hari raya untuk bergembira. Masalahnya aku tak gembira pun. Tak rasa macam raya pun. Dah 8 tahun aku rasa macam ni, so stop talking bout hari raya kene gembira. Dan yang lebih jeliknya, raya ni aku tak beraya kat rumah aku. Yes, you read me right, rumah aku. Tadi siang, aku boleh terbayang-bayang apa yang aku buat kalau aku beraya kat rumah aku. Jadi, untuk menghilangkan bayangan-bayangan itu, aku tidur. Ya, aku tidur pada hari raya pertama dari jam 2.30 sampai 6.30. Best, kan?

Sebab aku tidur selain dari untuk menghilangkan bayangan is, takde orang datang beraya pun kat rumah ni selain daripada budak-budak kecik 9 orang. Yang datang untuk kumpul duit raya. Sangatlah bagus. Sebab kalau kat rumah aku, kalau raya-raya nak tidur, mati kene hambat ngan kakak and ayah aku. Sebab aku ngan kakak aku kene take turn sediakan hidangan untuk orang datang beraya. DAMN! Aku nak balik beraya kat rumah akuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Susahnya untuk aku cakap no. Tapi dari lebih lama dengar dia punya ramblings and trying all his might to convince me, baik aku cakap no awal awal. Bukan aku tak kesian, tapi aku tak boleh. Nak come clean pun tak boleh. Too much conscience. Kan elok kalau dari awal awal lagi aku beritahu benda yang sebenar. Tapi biasa la, namanya manusia, dah terhantuk, baru nak sedar yg kat atas tu buah rambutan sebenarnya.

Dan aku tak rasa pun macam esok raya. Serius. Sebab aku ada kat Kajang. And ayah pun ada kat sini. Tak balik Sekinchan. Dah takleh nak lepak lepak rumah Angah Siah lepas siap isi kuih pagi raya tu. Selalu aku lepak kat situ sampai tengahari. Kekadang sampai ayah panggil aku balik, baru aku balik.

Ahhhhh..........

Aku hilang 2 hari.

Aku rather kau begged aku daripada cakap kau redha if aku say no. Dan aku sangat fond of you. Sangat. Dan aku juga rasa sangat comfortable with you. Sehingga aku boleh cerita benda yang kakak aku sendiri pun tak tau.

Dan aku sangat benci buat orang disappointed. Dan aku tak nak let him down. Sebab aku suka dia. Aku sayang dia. Dan aku tak nak hilang lagi.

Kononnya nak makan Hartz Chicken Buffet. Sekali jadi Hartz's reject nombor 3. Sudahnya beli sushi, temaki roll, apple juice n ribena n buka puasa kat depan cold storage tu je. Dah hilang rasa nak gi Hartz dah. Then smoke kat luar. Then gi beli blue cheese, mixed dried fruit. Lepak kat Sweet Chat makan blue cheese sama dried fruits. Minum Strawberry Mojito and Blue Ocean. Pastu tetiba nak makan Black Pepper Chicken Burger. And dia punya dessert sangat sucks. Cream almond my ass rasa cam Clorox.

Adui. Macam mana aku nak buat ni? Kene pegi kat yg tak sah jugak kot. Aduiiii..... Kusut la macam ni. Demmit. Apa lagi alasan aku nak bagi ni?

Esok aku nak gi Kajang la. Cari kat Kajang lak.

Hari ni, kalau Mak ada lagi, she will turn 62. 22nd September 1946. Happy Birthday, Mak. I love you so much.

Akhirnya,, dapat gak aku baca PANIC sampai habis. Aku memang nak baca sangat buku ni, so it took me only a day n a half je to finish 'em. Dan aku sangat satisfied dengan buku ni tho' ending dia ada sikit cacat aku rasa. But all in all, aku satisfied.

Sekarang aku nak start baca The Dark Room plak. Aku memang suka criminology. Sangat suka. Dan aku dah tengok Pathology. Sangat best bagi aku. Aku suka sangat masa Dr. Gallo tetak-tetak whore kat diorang punya dungeon. Siries rasa euphoria. Sick ke aku? Aku rasa ada sikit kot. Dan aku juga rasa pahala puasa aku kurang masa hari aku tengok cerita tu. Confirmed.

Best kan cerita yang saya pilih? Look who's picking la, ha ha.... Tak main la tengok cerita tajuk Oh Baby. Muahahahahahaha......

Kau ingat apa? Welfare ke? It's mine la! Sesuka hati kau je nak bagi mak kau la guna, atuk kau la, pe tak suruh onyang kau guna? Geramnya aku!

Memang babi betul la. Bangsat. Since aku update ni malam, takde la kurang pahala puasa aku kot. Sebab dah buka tadi.

Tak pernah seumur hidup aku sesat naik bangunan. Sesat jalan ada la. Hari ini dalam sejarah betul.
3 kali aku salah naik lif. Cis dan cis sungguh!

Chah, Big Fat Liar call aku chah. Big Fat Liar, can you believe it?

Haih. Penat la macam ni.

Pasar tu tak best. Tak sebest Gombak aku rasa. Dan nasi kerabunya pun tak sedap. Sebab tu aku makan tak habis. Lagipun aku dah makan kuih dan minum air yang banyak.

No Chah, he pays for the food, bukan aku. "Pegi matila dia!". Super kejam ayat ko, Chah. Ha ha ha.. Aku pun benci orang macam ni, tapi masalahnya hati aku ni sayang. Then, you tell me how? Dan untuk pertama kalinya semalam, lepas buka puasa aku rasa nak muntah. Sebab aku rasa kenyang sangat. Mengah. Dan adegan dalam bilik yang gelap juga membuat aku double mengah.

Jaga imej depan kawan ya? Bagus. Maknanya imej aku pun terjaga sama. Dan dia berterima kasih kat aku sebab tolong tengokkan moto dia kat Titiwangsa tuhari. Memang patut pun. Sejam setengah aku berdiri kat situ babe. Macamla aku takde keje, kan? Makanya, makan la kuih jem nenas ngan pulut panggang tu sampai habis.

Bosan gila la macam ni. Mau jadik gila betul aku ni karang.

That's a nice crowd. Whom i can mingle around comfortably. Dan juga boleh bergossip. Dan alangkah malangnya kamu when your friends pour down all your secrets to me. Ha ha ha.......

Maka dengan bersungguh-sungguh mengatakan kau tahu berenang, tapi sebenarnya tidak, dan ianya bocor sebab kau tak mahu join berkayak. Dan kau duduk betul-betul depan aku selepas tak sampai 2 jam kita bercerita tentang berenang. Dan malangnya juga aku jenis yang pandang mata orang itu bukan satu masalah bagi aku.

Aku kena come clean? Tidak menjadi masalah itu semua....

This morning was fun. Bebudak ITM je yg tau jawapan camtu babe. Ha ha ha..... Dah lama tak dengar eh? Haaaa..... Ni akak bagi ko dengar.

Kalau iye pun nak avoid dari aku, you don't have to turn off your phone. Aku sorang je yang ada privilege macam tu. Kau tak ada. Jadinya message mengatakan kau nak avoid dari aku itu sudah sampai. Got 'em clear as crystal, baby.

And keep on showing me the way. Europe, here we come!

Aku suka iklan mythbusters baru. Can you walk on the water? Can you?

Ooohhhh..... Ada pembetulan. Bukan iklan mythbusters rupanya. iklan Discovery Channel.

Kalau dah sekali datang, menderu-deru. Sampai pening kepala aku nak pilih mana satu.


Europe. Here we come!

Dah terlambat ke kalau aku nak buat full time? Tak payah la nak fikir pasal tu, kan? Buat je kalau kau nak buat. Just do it!

Polis rupanya. Aku dah agak dah. Eh, macam tetau je yg aku tak suka. Bukan tak suka pun sebenarnya, tapi entahla. Sebab asyikla cakap tak suka, tu yang jadi tak suka kot. It's all in the mind. Sebenarnya tak kisah pun. Lagi aku suka. Fixed income. Ada pencen.

Europe, here we come!

Sayang? Memang murah betul ayat-ayat cinta sekarang ni. And kiss sikit? Wah wah wah..... Bukan semua perempuan dalam YM tu cheap. And i'm sure as hell not one of them.

Asal ada perempuan layan PM kat YM, she is labelled as cheap ke? Tak pernah ke terfikir yang maybe dia nak cari kawan. Maksud aku kawan yang boleh tolong masa susah n boleh ketawa masa senang. Bukan semua perempuan dalam YM tu cheap, yang kau boleh bawak keluar n have sex with them. Eventhough ada some of them yang macam tu. And aku pun heran gak, ape semua lelaki kat dalam chatroom tu kabaret-kabaret belaka ke? Ataupun desperado? Since lelaki dah instilled in their mind pompuan chatroom cheap, maka aku pun anggap semua lelaki dalam chatroom tu kabaret la. Boleh?

So, kalau kenal perempuan kat chatroom, and kau sebagai lelaki ajak dia keluar sekali je and dia agrees, so, she's cheap? Tak terlintas ke, maybe yang dia cari kawan or cari boyfriend or prospective husband? Kalau dia tak agree nak keluar, macam mana nak get to know each other? Tak faham betul la aku lelaki yang mindset macam ni. Pelik. Lagi weird dari aku yang weirdo ni.

Aku tak reti nak cakap lelaki jenis apa dia ni. Pisau cukur macam underrated sangat. Sebab dia lagi bangsat dari pisau cukur. Call atau sms aku hanya untuk mintak duit. Buat pura-pura baik dengan aku hanya untuk duit. Memang bangsat lelaki macam ni.

Hari rabu siap tunjuk tunjuk macam concern pasal hari khamis aku. Sekali tak tahan, petang tu gak sms tanya aku ada duit tak? Ada, tapi aku dah tak nak bagi kat kau, sebab kau kata pinjam, tapi tak reti nak bayar. Makanya, semalam aku sms, lepas aku settle semua hal hari khamis. Haram, takde reply. Sebab aku dah kata aku takde duit masa hari rabu.

Apakah jenis lelaki ini, kawan-kawan? Lelaki yang tidah tahu malu dan segan meminta duit dari seorang perempuan yang relationshipnya hanya kawan yang kenal tidak lebih dari 5 bulan. Ya, memang aku pernah tolong dia, aku pinjamkan duit, tapi aku tak expect dia akan assikla mintak duit dari aku. Aku ikhlas tolong dia masa memula, tapi kalau treat aku macam ni, nak duit baru nak call atau sms, aku marah la. Ingat aku ni siapa? Mistress Warren Buffet ke, apa?

Dahla, spoil mood Jumaat aku je. Dahla dah dekat nak puasa ni. Makan nasik lagi bagus.

Well, you dont go propose someone whom you just spoke once on the phone. Or chatted 5 times on Yahoo Messenger. Hell, maybe not 5 but 8, tops.

Mungkin betul la Chah, dia nak jual aku. Or dia memang dah desperate nak nikah sebab mak dia asyik tanya bila. So, just grab any girl yg ko rasa kekonon cam ada konektion, ask her to marry you. Gila betul la.

Lambat betul esok ni nak habis. Aku dah bosan dengar kat tv n radio propa pasal Permatang Pauh ni. Jelak! Baik aku layan radio Arab je ngan Ayah aku, channel 868.

Pasal UiTM n ketuanan melayu ni pun satu hal. Aku Alumni UiTM, n aku tak rasa tergugat pun kalau nak dibuka 10% to non-bumi masuk UiTM. Sebab aku masuk UiTM ni masa sebelum jadi U lagi. Aku masuk masa still lagi ITM. Dan aku amat bernasib baik tak jadi buruh paksa duduk kat stadium Melawati masa Tun isytiharkan ITM jadi UiTM. Kalau nak cerita pasal melayu n bangsa lain ni memang sampai bila pun takkan habis. Of course setiap orang akan backup bangsa dia sendiri. Ni belum cerita pasal kenegerian lagi. Oh, you dont want me to go there. Trust me. You dont.

Semuanya balik pada diri sendiri sebenarnya. Melayu malas? Bukan. Aku pernah jumpa Cina yang malas. It's all in you. It's all in your mind. Takde sape boleh ubah diri melainkan dirinya sendiri. Baca Al-Quran, bukak balik kitab hadis. Well, since most Malays are Muslim kat Malaysia ni, sebab tu aku tulis camtu.

Aku nampak paramesium depan mata aku.

Pardon my cleavage, Ms. Mariah Carey. Ha ha. I love Adam Sandler.

And i love WALL E too. And Eve. And Captain of AXIOM. And hate Auto.

Well well well..... Yesterday was fun. Except for the fact that i have to wait at Titiwangsa's Monorail Station for 1 and 1/2 hours. Tak ape la. The most important thing is, i'm satisfied.

Kau ingat kau boleh ugut aku? Nak cari aku kat umah. Be my honourable guest la. Aku sikit tak heran. Kata dah suruh on cam kunun. Aku tak heran la. Tu baru sikit jer aku reply. Kalau ikut hati aku, kau akan rasa macam nak hempas2 je pc ko nanti. Sebab tu aku offline jap. Bagi aku calm sikit.
Sakit kan hati kau, ugutan kau tak jalan. Ha ha. Kau silap orang la. Kau ingat bila kau cakap macam tu, aku akan melutut? Oi, tengok dengan siapa kau bercakap la.

Pastu call aku guna number yang aku tak kenal. Sebab kau tau kalau call dari your number, kompom aku tak angkat. Kat situ kau dah kalah. Aku ada pilihan whether nak nagkat call kau atau tidak. Sekali nephew aku yg angkat daa.... Kalau dapat kat dia, lagi mampus ko kena. Kirim salam kat mak kau yang pelacur jugak tu ye? Padan muka.

Aku demam. Jadi aku takde mood nak have sex dengan engkau. Jadi, tak perlu nak sms kata kau boleh panaskan badan aku dengan badan kau. Badan aku memang dah semulajadi panas. Lagi tambah aku panas. Bodoh!

Kau kata kau sayang aku? Kau care? Ye la tu sangat. Bagi aku sms yang sama macam Ciggy bagi. Buat aku fikir that is one of the templates that guys hantar kat girls. Ha ha. Exactly sama. Cuma susunan ayat je yang lain. Cheh!

Chah, kata nak lunch ngan aku hari ni? Penipu sungguh! Reconfirm ngan aku balik kunun!

Rumah tumpangan? Cheap betul. Sangat cheap. Aku expect paling kurang pun, Dragon Inn. Kau bawak aku pegi rumah tumpangan? Then, kau ajak aku keluar lagi Jumaat ni? Tak hingin aku. Pegi carik pompuan lain la. Cheh!

Aku tau, any guys yang make out ngan aku, kompom akan satisfied. Confirm. Sebab aku tau how to treat a man. Tapi malangnya, tak semua lelaki yang make out ngan aku knows how to treat me good. Even si ex yang tinggal bersama-sama tu pun tak reti nak treat me right. Except for Big Fat Liar. Sebab tu aku terkesan sangat ngan dia. And i can't get him out of my mind.

Yang si ex ni lagi teruk. Suruh aku bagi hand job. HELLO!. Aku perempuan, dan aku ada something yang dipanggil vagina. Tak faham? Ok, let me simplified it for you. Pussy. Rings any bells? Good. Aku ada pussy, kenapa kau nak suruh aku bagi hand job?. Penat tau tak? Lenguh. Nak tercabut tangan aku. Then, bila kau came, kau dapat sedap. Aku dapat apa? Dapat lenguh tangan.

Aku ingat dia boleh change. Tapi, aku cuma boleh harap je la.

Dahla, malas dah aku nak tulis.

Sharp Shooter.

Tu semua ayat poyo.
Ha ha.

Smooth talker?
I don't need them.
I've reached the age which sweet pillow talk doesn't have any effects anymore.
Especially coming from a kiddo like you.
Buat aku rasa geli geleman je.
Bukan rasa nak geli geli bak kata Ita.
Ihikssss......

And yes, memang aku mengada-ngada kalau on the fon dengan dia.
Apa salahnya pun?
Coz he's doing the same thing.
And we enjoy talking on the phone very much.
Tapi takde la sampai tahap ni:

"All this while, i thought people that falls in love by just talking on the phone are stupid, but now, i think i'm stupid".

Ha ha....
We enjoy the company, the voice, the things that we talked about.
There's no harm, anyway, right?

Sugguh typical.
Mungkin maksud typical ni berlainan bagi setiap orang.
Aku lemas sangat dengan orang yang typical ni.
Dan typical yang pada pemahaman aku.
Aku tau kau tak puas hati dengan dia, tapi kau tak perlu ulang seratus kali.
Dan aku tau kau rasa hebat sebab aku ada dan dia kecik lagi.
Aku tau.
Tapi kau buat aku rasa lemas.
Dan bosan.
Dan rasa macam dah tak nak jumpa kau lagi.
Dan rasa cinta aku amat dalam pada dia.

Thank you.
Sebab buat aku tersedar yang aku cintakan dia.
Buat aku rasa yang aku sayang sangat pada dia

It sucks.
BIGTIME.

Itu namanya test run.
Confirm, reject.

Easy sex?
Just tell her that you love her and wants her to be your girlfriend.
Eventho' you dont have a slightest feeling towards her.

BITCH!

Groovy, baby!

Were you born just to hurt me?
Coz if you are, you are doing fucking well.
Flying colors.

Bosan sangat!

So, dah official, I'm Yours is lagu utk Penang.
He he....
Assikla lagu tu je kita dengar lam kete, kan Chah kan?
Pegi balik asik dengar lagu tu.

Dah 2 bulan ni weh.
Cecukup la tu cuti.
Carik la keje.

Our name is our virtue?

Well well well......

The whole album ada dalam W580i aku sekarang.
Yeay!

Kiddo, you are still who you are rupanya.
Akak ingatkan dah insaf.
Ye la, sementelah dah buat ujian HIV/AIDS, kan?
Ahaksss.....

Bila kita nak buat mischief lagi ni budak?
03.08.08 ko dah nak fly gi Jepun.
Tanak date ngan akak ke?
Ke takut ngan dinda?
Muahahahahahahaha......

Tadi aku berkobar kobar nak update.
Tapi aku sakit kepala.
Nantilah.

Hancock was good.
Wanted sux, though.
Nasib baik dapat tengok free.
Complimentary on my birthday.

This entry is called writing for the sake of updating.
Ha ha...
Yesterday was my birthday.
My 28th birthday.
Phewwww.....


No.
I'm not THAT excited to see him, Chah.
Jahat ke aku?
Ntahla Chah.
Maybe I am.

I'm not gonna write you a love song

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night

Chah.


2. What were you doing at 0800?

Sleep. As am on a long leave now. He he...


3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

Reading other people's blog n masak untuk lunch.


4. What happened to you in 2006?

Aku kerja ngan Majlis Perbandaran Kajang. Wohoooo.... (Yea, rite!)


5. What was the last thing you said out loud?

"Sebab ni la acik tak suka korang mandi dua orang sekali" (while banging on the bathroom's door) - to my nephews


6. How many beverages did you have today?

Teh 'o' ais n water


7. What color is your hairbrush?

Orange


8. What was the last thing you paid for?

Tambang dari Klang to KL for 3 people. (RM12.30)



9. Where were you last night?

Home @ Kajang


10. What color is your front door?

Light brown n turqoise


11. Where do you keep your change?

My jean's pocket


12. What’s the weather like today?

Hot & Sunny. But cloudy this morning.


13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?

VANILLA!


14. What excites you?

Movies and a very very good book.


15. Do you want to cut your hair?

Yes. Badly. Tapi 'dia' tak bagi aku potong. Huwaaaaa!!!!!!


16. Are you over the age of 25?

Ahemmmm.....


17. Do you talk a lot?

Yes. I am a very friendly person.


18. Do you watch the O.C.?

Sometimes. I'm not an avid follower.


19. Do you know anyone named Steven?

Steven Gerrard. (Knew him by name, does that count? Ahakssss)


20. Do you make up your own words?

Yeap. For example last nite. My word is : MARAJUK!


21. Are you a jealous person?

When it comes to the person I love, of course la I jealous.


22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.

Acu


23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.

Kak Ema


24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?


Kajang (what i save my sis name in my phonebook)- asking whether ayah nak gi Jumaat or not


25. What does the last text message you received say?

OK, B gi Jumaat dulu k. Love u


26. Do you chew on your straw?

No


27. Do you have curly hair?

No.


28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?


Am torn between balik kampung with Chah or Midvalley watching Hancock with my B.


29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?

Someone who shall remain unnamed.


30. What was the last thing you ate?

Nasi lauk sotong masak kicap and ikan goreng.


31. Will you get married in the future?

Of course.


32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?

Get Smart. I really enjoyed that movie. A LOT!


33. Is there anyone you like right now?


Yes. "Big Fat Liar".


34. When was the last time you did the dishes?

This morning.


35. Are you currently depressed?

A bit. Ayah dah membebel tanya bila nak keje. Arghhhhhhhhhhh.............


36. Did you cry today?

No. No reason to.

Sabar.

Aku sangat jatuh cinta dengan lagu ni.

Sick Puppies - What Are You Looking For?

Dan ini liriknya.

I walk the line of the disappointed
I celebrate when I'm in pain
My heart and mind can be disjointed
I built a bed in this hole I made
I recognize that I'm damaged
I sympathize that you are too
But I wanna breathe without feelin' so self-conscious
But it's hard when the welt's starin' at you

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you working for
What are you searching for
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love

You join the line of the getting richer
You keep your face but it's movin' slow
You are defined by all that you have hoarded
But you're surprised it doesn't fill up the hole.

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you coping for
What are you hoping for
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love

I'll never be what I see on the tv screen
I just keep dreaming of what I'm never gonna be
I can't think of a better way to waste my time then try

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you hurtin' for
What are you searching for
Love love love love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love love love love

You won't be thinkin' of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what are you workin' for,
What are you waitin' for

Kenapa buat blog hanya boleh dibaca oleh pembaca yang dijemput?
Kedekut?
Takut org yg kenal baca tentang keburukan kau?
Kalau jawapan yg kedua, baik tak payah ada blog in the first place.
Dah la.
Malas aku.

And thank you my friend for introducing me to the haunted Sick Puppies song.
Thank you so very much.

Owh, aku tak pernah beritahu ke yang kalau aku hilang perasaan, aku akan ignore semua orang?
You already have a taste of it malam tadi kan?
Too bad, it must have slipped my mind.
To tell.
My bad.
Anyway, you almost pass the test.
Next time, kalau aku dah bagitau aku hilang perasaan, biarkan aku.
Let me be with myself.
Kau tak perlu tunjukkan concern kau dengan telefon aku sebanyak 68 kali.
Sudahnya, aku off telefon.
Dan aku memang lupa nak beritahu.
Jadinya, kau salah, dan aku terlupa.
Balanced. Jadi neutral.
Tapi yang bangsatnya, pepagi lagi kau dah spoil mood aku.
Nasib baik aku rasa nak layan.
Kalau tak, memang phone aku akan off satu hari ni.

Aku tengok cerita ni ahad lepas.
Best gila.
Aku rasa entertainted sangat.
Sangat sangat.
Despite ape ape je la.
Ha ha

Believe or not to BELIEVE?

SMS.

"Kalau bby nak tau, B dah anggap bby mcm nyawa B sendiri."

Owh please.
You think i will melt like a 16 year old schoolgirl if you send me that sms?
Hello! Reality check. 10.07.1980.
Occay?
You want to know what i feel while reading that sms?
I feel like slapping you. Hard. And i also feel like wrenching my gut and throw out everything that is in my stomach.
I feel sick. To every inch of muscles, bones, nerves and everything.

I need to stop all this.
All this sweet pillow talk.
Been there. Fuck that. Ha ha.
I've heard almost all this shitty things called pick up line. And sweet pillow talk.
You can't get into my pants if you can fit into it.
Get it?
Get a grip. Grow up.
I dont fall for that kind of shit anymore. Anymore.

Sedar la lelaki oi.
Bukan semua perempuan akan jatuh melutut depan kangkang kau kalau kau 'berayat' macam tu.
Sikit sikit sudah.
Cukupla dengan your care, your love (if there's one) and lovey dovey smses.
Tak payah la buat ayat camtu.
I'm one of a kind, remember?
Ayat ayat macam tu hanya buat aku rasa menyampah.
Yang amat sangat.
Dan juga buat aku tumbuh tanduk.
Dan juga buat aku rasa macam nak test engkau.
Maka, my alter ego akan keluar.
Remember Liya?
Yes. She's back.
But this time, not with a vengeance.
This time, she wants to mess around.
Lagipun dah lama dia duduk dalam almari.
Sian dia.
Pulak tu, almari tu takleh gi Narnia. Double kesian.
So, be prepared.
Sebab selain Liya, aku juga ada Chah.
Kan Chah, kan?

Benda yang datang ngan cepat selalunya doesn't last long, kan Chah kan?

Puteh.
Well, aku kene la carik someone yg fairer than me.
Why?
Sebab i dont have the luxury to have a fair skin macam Maya Karin.

Chah,
I am the bestest best friend someone could ask for.
Right?
Ha ha.

Of all the people, you should know better.


Lifehouse - You And Me

What day is it and in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Again.
I lost.
Mana mamat Irish ni?
Dah majuk tanak tido ngan aku ke?
I need u.
Not your four leaf clover.
YOU.

I really really hate to loose.
To the max.
Benci tau!

I pun benci Republic Chech.
Nape you all kalah?
Portugal pun I benci gak.
Sape suruh you all menang?
Kan I dah kalah ngan I punya B.
Benci tau.
Dah la haritu pun I kalah jugak.
I nak gak menang.
Tapi B I ni tanak kasi I menang.

B, malam ni bagi Baby menang, k?
Tak kira.
Nak menang gak.
You know I hate to loose.
Right?

Jangan tengok The Orphanage.
Unless ko memang suka dengar orang bercakap bahasa Sepanyol.

Dan aku benci Itali.
Kenapa kalah ngan Belanda?
3 - 0 lak tu.
Kan aku pun dah kalah.
Arghhhhhh..........
Aku patut kata aku sokong Belanda.
Demmit.

B,
I'm sorry if what i said got you thinking.
But i'm just telling you what me n she thinks.
It's a HUGE different, B.
HUGE.
And what she said got me thinking too.
I dont wanna be that damn plastic no more.
NO more.
I know it hurts.
And you will do anything, anything at all to have me.
Yes.
I know that.
B pun ada cakap kan, if anything bagitau je.
Tak nak ada rahsia kan?
Jangan B find out later by yourself, kan?
Thats what I did.
No more secrets.
Let me trust you with all my hearts. And you too to me.
No more secrets, k B?
It's not like she didnt like you.
It's call precaution, B. Precaution.
The possibility is there, kan?
Who knows.
It's not like you know what will happen in the future.
Apa nak jadi esok pun kita tak tahu, kan?
So, it's just a precaution.
A head's up.
Peringatan.
Coz shit happens.
And it will smack you right in the face.

Whatever it is.
I love you.
And I know that you love me too.
It's all that matters.
Aside from a very good house, a damn well good car and every month's shopping spree.
He he.

Ignorance is a bliss.


Suka ke?
Ntah la.
Aku rasa la kot.
Tapi tak kisah la.
Nobody cared anyway, rite?
But of course Ayah do.
Thats what matters the most.The ultimatum.
Thats it la.
Kalau rasa nyusahkan sangat, ignore je.
Aku tak suruh pun.
Lets live our life differently now.
Starting from today. This moment.
Dah tak payah care. Concern.
Waste of time.
Let's get retarded, bak kata Black Eyed Peas.
Dah lama tak makan black eyed peas, masak kari, campur pedal ayam.
Dedulu masa aku kekecik, kalau ada kenduri tahlil, mesti ada lauk ni.
Now, it's hard to find lauk ni kat memana kenduri.
Dah pupus kot.
Or, org dah malas nak mengerjakan lauk ni.
Or, black eyed peas ni dah extinct.
He he he........

Dah lama aku tak buat gila macam malam tadi.
Ha ha..


Kalau aku kata yang aku takde perasaan pun kat either 1 of you, camana?
Would you guys believe it?
Even dia yg ada kat Kg. Idaman tu pun, dah tak ada sekelumit rasa.
Tapi dia yang ada kat Terengganu sekarang, ada sikit la.
Sikit sangat.
Yang kalau kene tiup angin kipas baru nak hidup, kompom terbang semua.
Nak kata hati aku dah mati, tak jugak.
It's just aku dah tak berapa nak teruja ngan fling2 ni semua.
Dah takde rasa pun.
Mungkin sebab dah penat kot.
Dan juga dah tua.
Ha ha.

Whatever la.

My condition is getting worst.
One by one sakit datang.

I wonder.
Is my time almost up?

I thought we are not gonna go there.
But we did.

Weh, ni dah berapa hari tak update ni, pesal?

Sebab aku lupa aku ada blog.

Wahahahahahaha.....

I spend too much time looking at my screen?
Of course la.
Takkan aku nak ngadap tengok muka ko lak kot?

It's been 6 years.
Wow.
Not bad.
Still going strong.
Masih gagah lagi.
Ha ha.

Kenapa perut aku sakit?
Dah 2 minggu.

Malam semalam memang malam ini dalam sejarah la.
Tak pernah aku terlajak sampai macam tu sekali.
Giler ah.
Memang sejarah sungguh.

How can u say that i hate you?
I never liked you from the start.
Jadi tiada perasaan aku untuk kamu.

Aku heran, jauh sangat ke KL ngan Kajang.
Asal aku bagitau aku duk Kajang n kerja kat KL, semua nak tanya.
"Tak jauh ke nak gi keje?"
It is not.
I repeat, it fucking is not.
Bukannya aku stay kat Bukit Kayu Hitam n keje kat Johor Bahru and kene travel everyday.
Stupid.
So, kalau keje kat KL, aku kene stay KL la?
Macam tu?
Tak boleh ke keje kat KL, stay kat Shah Alam ke, Klang ke, Subang ke, Gombak ke..
Tak boleh?
Kalau iye pun nak mengayat, nak flirt kat YM, carik la soalan yg bunyi pandai sikit.
eg : Awak nak tak saya jemput n hantar awak balik keje hari2?
Haaaaaa......
Tanya aku soalan camtu, kompom saat tu jugak aku ngaku aku gelfren kau.
Ha ha ha

NEAR MISS - Separated

She can't love you anymore
Coz you killed her once before
And everything that you trust
Separated
Soon your world starts to fall
Then all your luck you lost it all
Through this time you went your way
Everything changes day by day
Free yourself from the pain
Live your life you jumped the train
I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all

You can't love her it's the end
Coz she'll kill you once again
And everything that you loved
Separated
Soon you'll realize it's the time
Find yourself when hearts collide
And maybe things weren't meant
A life alone is a life well spent

Free yourself from the pain
Live your life you jumped the train
I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all

I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all
Or see you die again
I never wanted this to be the end

Menyesal ke?
Ha ha.
Aku tak heran pun.
Padan muka.
Siapa suruh start dulu?

Aku rimas.
Kalau kau cakap banyak kali.
What do you expect?
Me to love you back?
Unfortunately, I dont.
Tak kira la berapa ratus juta kali kau cakap.
Cakap sekali sudah
Bukannya aku ni bangang sangat tak faham.

Mood aku lak cam bangsat je hari ni.
Life is a journey.
Yea, right.
Kalau perjalanan kau ok, best la cakap camtu.
Cuba kalau perjalanan cam celaka, mampus tak cakap camtu punya.
Mesti kau cakap camni punya, "life, mine especially is HELL!"
Tak percaya?
Nak bet?
Sure?
Jangan menyesal, lately, mamat Irish yg jaga pot of gold kat hujung pelangi tu tetiap malam tido ngan aku.
Without his pants on.
Ha ha.

Selamat Hari Guru.
Untuk semua guru yang pernah mengajar aku.

Cikgu Junaidah, Cikgu Sabri, Cikgu Kamsiah, Cikgu Hamid, Cikgu Nizar, Cikgu Teh Nazhura, Cikgu Jamaluddin, Cikgu Haslina dan Cikgu Hasmaliza.

Kalian semua memberi impak terbesar dalam hidup aku.
Dan kerana itulah, nama kalian masih terpahat dan tersemat dalam hati aku.
Forever.

Terima kasih.
Atas segalanya.
Mendewasakan.
Itu utama.

Kenapa aku rasa macam nak menangis ni?

Hope.
Kenapa bagi harapan.
Pastu tinggal macam tu je?
Kejam.

Why is it so hard.
To say NO.
Am I that kind?
Don't think so.
But it's so hard.
So damn fucking hard.
To say NO.

Wallet aku hilang.
Tertinggal kat a place but just consider it lost la.
Senang sikit.
Aku buat report kat Balai Jln. Bandar (H.S. Lee)
Aku dah call semua bank.
Aku tak pernah hilang benda penting camni seumur hidup aku.
Damn!
Well, there's always a start for everything, kan?
But i dont want this kind of shitty start, ahakssss.....
Aku tgk kat site JPN, first time hilang IC, kene bayar RM100
Kepala hotak la!
Bukan aku sengaja (ehm... aku tak sengaja, aku 'ter'tinggal) nak hilangkan IC aku, babe....
Melampau sungguh.
Giler ah makan duit JPN ni.
Bikin aku kusut jer, tetengah bulan ni nak kene bayar serat pulak.
Dahla ATM semua pun hilang.
Kusut ah!

Aku tgk cerita ni last saturday.
Aku sangat expect cerita ni sangat seram.
Sebab dia cerita horror dari Jepun.
Tapi......
Macam sial, celaka bangsat je cerita ni.
Tak seram langsung.
Tak suspense langsung.
Sekali pun takde buat aku terkejut cerita ni.
Sampai ada sorang minah ni boleh jerit "blah la bodoh!" dalam panggung.
Tak ke bangsat cerita ni namanya?
Nasib baik bukan aku bayar tiket.
Kalau aku bayar, mau aku bakar je Jepun.
Neway, thanks la budak, belanja akak tengok cerita ni.
Memang cam sial, kan?
Baik tengok Iron Man.

DUFFY - MERCY

Yeah Yeah Yeah x4

I love you
but i gotta stay true
my morals got me on my knees
I'm begging please stop playing games

I don't know what this is
cos you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

Chorus
You got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
I said release me

Now you think that I
will be something on the side
but you got to understand
that i need a man
who can take my hand yes i do

I don't know what this is
but you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

You got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
I said you’d better release yeah yeah yeah

I'm begging you for mercy
yes why wont you release me
I'm begging you for mercy

you got me begging
you got me begging
you got me begging

Mercy, why wont you release me
I'm begging you for mercy
why wont you release me

you got me begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy

Why wont you release me yeah yeah
break it down

Nak gi jumpa bomoh?
Tak payah la kak oi.
Betul, takde rasa pape pun
Nak kata aku soulless, tak jugak.
I still can feel the air around me.
Eh, ni cerita pasal aku ke?
Ha ha ha.......

One of the reason why plastic, coz me d me is like a magneto.
Attract bebenda yang tak sepatutnya.
Exactly cam magnet.
Sebab kalau plastik, dia cair je, takkan attract pape.
Ape labu? Ko suka makan kerepek? Aku pun suka, lelagi kerepek ubi sira ngan sambal.
Auuummmmmm.........

Batuk dan demam.

Ada keluar ngan Aqil ke malam tadi?
Ha? takde pun. Nape?
Siap panggil yang lagi?
Ala... Come on la, he's younger than me, so calling him yang is nothing la....
Nothing? Kalau takde pape, takkan panggil yang? (hangs up)

That's plastic.

Ada keluar ngan Aqil ke malam tadi?
Ada. We even spent the night together. I already wank your lil' boy 4 times. You should join. Then we have 3some together. Wanna try?

Me d me.

Ha ha ha ha......

It felt soooooooooo good to be back.
Serious shit punya cakap ni.
Rupanya ada hikmah atas apa yang jadi semalam.
Dah lama sangat kene tekan, sekali dia mantul balik, haaaaaa....
Ambik kau.
The trigger has been pulled
And my cycle dah complete.
Metamorfosis dah lengkap.
Dah takde fake plastic lagi dah.
Apa nampak, itu dapat.
Tara suka kalu, boleh blah!

Aku nak tengok Iron Man.

Dan aku nak menangis puas-puas.
Bukan, aku bukan nak menangis sambil tengok cerita Iron Man.
Aku nak menangis dengan diri aku sendiri.

Bila aku dah set mind aku nak tgk movie tu, sekali tetiba kene tengok movie lain, langsung aku tak enjoy.
Aku tengok for the sake of watching sebab ada depan mata.
Damn!

Video ini untuk kamu berdua.
:)

Dia marah aku sebab aku marah dia bising.
Aku nak bercakap ngan ayah pun susah.
Lagi kuat suara aku, lagi kuat bunyi dia.
Last-last aku give up, aku ketuk sangkar dia.
Dia marah.
Tak dapat patuk tangan aku, patuk besi sangkar dia pun jadik.

E-tam jahat.....

Dah 2 ritual aku tinggalkan.
Pagi tadi cam terasa gak.
Tapi aku kuat.
He he.

Aku nak balik kampung hari ni.
Aku rindu ayah.
Sangat.
Yeay.... Balik jumpa ayah.

Said you knew this day will come.
Really?
You do?
Does that mean you are expecting it?
Without even trying to stop it?
Say something.
At least, ask me why, then maybe i'll rethink about it.
But none coming from you.

Sebelum jadi parah macam yang sebelum ni, baik stop.

No cheap slut here.
Only call girls who charge you USD1500 a minute.
Thank you very much.

This is for you my LOVE

Dah lamaaaaaaaa sangat.
Finally.
:)

I'm in denial.
I hate this feeling.
Turning into Antonio Banderas.
Tak suka! Tak suka!

Mak,
Acik rindu sangat kat mak.
Sangat sangat.
Semua doa acik untuk mak.
Acik sayang sangat kat mak.
Sangat sangat.
Semoga mak damai and tenang dalam 'tidur' mak.
Salah satu dari dari taman syurga, InsyaAllah.
Al-Fatihah.
Dah 8 tahun, mak.


Tot you want to dump me oledi.
No sms, no calls.
How can i not think bout that, u tell me.
Shud have told me earlier u r not feeling well.
I knew bout ur ulser, but demam?
I didn't know that.

Revenge is sweet!

Ha ha ha

Engkau dah pandai buat alasan?
Belum dengar lagi alasan aku.
Lagi banyak.
Lagi maha hebat.
Sampai terkedu.

Bukan.
Bukan aku banyak alasan.
Aku cuma tak berminat.
Itu saja.
Aku jenis manusia yang kalau aku tak rasa teruja, aku akan jadi malas.
Tapi rajin mencipta alasan untuk menolak.
Kerana aku sedikit bermasalah untuk mengatakan "tidak".
Jalan mudah, cipta alasan.
Itu dan ini.
Aku tahu kau dah bosan.
Tapi kau masih mengharap.
Salah aku?
Aku tak pernah beri kau harapan.
Walau sebesar hama.
Aku beritahu yang sebenarnya pada kau.
Dan aku pernah juga meninggikan suara pada kau, tentang perkara ini.
Apa yang kau harapkan dari aku?
Dan dengan aku, kau perlu tegas.
Jangan biarkan aku pijak kepala.
Sebab kalau aku dah mula memijak kepala, aku akan melampaui batas.
Kemudian aku akan bosan.
Kemudian,
SELAMAT TINGGAL!

Aku angau.
Ha ha ha.
Nak orang basuh ke sweater tu, yang?
Nanti kalau dah basuh, hilang lak bau.
Dah takleh nak bawak tidur dah sweater tu.
Hmmm.....
Tak payah basuh la, eh?
Nanti sayang basuh sendiri, k?
Love u a lot, sayang.

Avoiding me, ke?
Sure you want to avoid me, is it?
Me tak kisah pun. Eh, jap.... kisah gak la... sikit....
Ehehehehehehe......

Rob Thomas - Streetcorner Symphony

It's morning
I wake up
The taste of summer sweetness on my breath
It's a clear day
In this city
Let's go dance under the street lights
All the people in this world
Let's come together
More than ever
I can feel it
Can you feel it

Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers of every different color
Don't you feel that sunshine telling you to hold tight
Things will be alright
Try to find a better life
Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers there for one another
Come on over
Man I know you wanna let yourself go

Some people
It's a pity
They go all their lives and never know
How to love or to let love go
But it's alright now
We'll make it through this somehow
And we'll paint the perfect picture
All the colors of this world will run together more than ever
I can feel it
Can you feel it

Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers of every different color
Don't you feel that sunshine telling you to hold tight
Things will be alright
Try to find a better life
Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers there for one another
Come on over
Man I know you wanna let yourself go

We may never find our reason to shine
But here and now this is our time
And I may never find the meaning of life
But for this moment I am fine
So

Come on over
Down to the corner
My sisters and my brothers of every different color
Don't you feel that sunshine telling you to hold tight
Things will be alright
Try to find a better life
Come on over
Down to the corner we can leave it all behind
Never been a better time
Come on over
Man I know you wanna let yourself go on and on and on

What are you trying to do?
Punish me?
Hurt me?
Revenge?
Come on, it won't work.
Not if it's you doing it, that is.
Who the fuck do you think you are?
You are nobody in my life.
NOBODY!
I don't give a damn.
Whatever you want to do with your life, doesn't concern me.
But it will hurt the other person.
For sure.

I AM VERY DISAPPOINTED!

Why?

Tadi punya la banyak idea aku nak menulis.
Sekali tetiba, terus hilang.
Cheh!

Aku rasa esok or Isnin, dapat la hadiah bet aku semalam.
Muahahahahahahahhaha........
Ade ke patut, bet ngan aku off phone for the whole night.
Kompom la aku menang.
Walaupun sayang aku merajuk sikit, but still, aku menang jugak.
Ha ha ha.....

Sayang, sorry ye?
Orang dah nak bangun dah, tapi tak terbangun.
I'm very very sorry.
I love you.

Oxygen by Colbie Caillat

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over
My feet like bricks underwater

How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby If I was your lady
I would make you happy
I'm Never gonna leave, never gonna leave
Oh baby I will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And so i found a state of mind
Where i could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside down to a place
Where you've been waiting

How am i supposed to tell you how i feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby If I was your lady
I would make you happy
Im never gonna leave, never gonna leave
Oh baby I will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And you dont wanna keep me waiting
Staring at my fingers
Feeling like a fool

Oh baby I will be your lady
I will make you happy
I'm never gonna leave, never gonna leave

Oh baby I will be your lady
I'm going crazy
yeah-ohhhh

Tell me what you want,
Baby tell me what you need
Anything i ask baby give it to me
Baby give it to me, give it to me

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile

Tak kisah pun kan.
Sebab the other party yang terhegeh-hegeh.
Yang tanya.
Sebab tu the other side ego and boleh tetiba jadik ais.
Cuba kalau the other side yang tanya dulu.
Mesti the other side takut sikit nak merajuk-merajuk ni semua, kan?

Come on la my fren, you are wayyyyyy better and stronger than this.
Come on!

My ring is gone!
Bukan hilang, tapi jatuh kat tengah highway.
Bergolek dari tepi sampai ke tengah to be exact.
Aku buka sebab ada bedak melekat kat jari, pastu nak alih gi jari sebelah.
Then, jatuh dan terus bergolek ke tengah highway.
Aku pun pandang je cincin tu bergolek tanpa mengambil apa apa tindakan.
Yang aku heran tu, aku boleh tengok je.
Ngok betul.
Dah almost 3 thn aku pakai cincin tu.
Murah jer. RM40.
Tapi sayang. Coz aku beli cincin tu ngan Asu.
Takpelah, mungkin akan dapat cincin yg lebih besar agaknya.
He he he..........

To:

Mr. ShiSha (ehehe... jgn marah love)

Love is crazy
Pretty baby
Take it slow
All you have to do
Is never let go

I'm sorry it's taking me a while
To show my feelings to you
But don't worry baby
Now I know, and now I'm sure
That I love you
I love You.

Gila penat aku semalam.
Tu baru bertunang, satgi kalau kawen, mati aku agaknya.
Dah nama PA, so, macam la aku ada option lain, kan?
Tapi takpe, aku enjoy working with him.
Memang la dia fussy, tapi takde la sampai tahap perfectionist.
Normal, semua orang nak benda perfect, kan?

Really got me thinking.
What do you mean by saying i'm acting like "who i were"
NOOOOO......
I DO NOT want to be in that considerate mood nemore, babe.
It's tiring.
Damn tiring!
Does love need reasons?
If it does, say you take away the reasons, will there still be love?

dah lama saya tak update blog acik

Aku ingatkan dah boleh la aku kerja ngan cargas hari ni.
Rupanya sakit kepala di tengahari.
Damn.

Aku tengok 27 dresses malam tadi.
Layan gak citer ni.
Fun.
Walaupun demam, aku gagahkan jugak diri aku.
Langsung hari ni pun MC jugak.
Ha ha ha.

Aku takleh tahan la.
Rasa tak sedap badan sangat.

I'm protected.
Ada je halangannya.
Alhamdulillah.

I want to run away
And I will.

Boleh pulak aku tertinggal IC kat umah.
DAMN!
Maka hari ni aku seorang rakyat Malaysia yang takde IC.
Ha ha ha.....
Tapi aku still simpan IC aku yg masa umur 12 tahun.
But unfortunately, IC tu dah tak laku.
Kalau tak, dah activate dah.
Dah kaya dah aku.
Muahahahahahahahah......

Sungguh selesa!

Better end it, kan Chah?
Daripada memendam dan menjeruk rasa.
Lagipun memang dah takde rasa pape pun.
Nak kata tak usaha, dah berapa kali cuba dah.
Macam nak tak nak jer, baik tak payah terus.
Ahaksssss.........

Babe, sib baik I tergerak hati nak tengok e-kawan, kan?
If not, memang lost contact la kita jawabnya.
I missed talking to you, and most importantly, I missed you.
Thank you so much for cheering me up yesterday.
And I'll pay you. No worries. :)
And you know who you are (or do I need to put your name here? ihiksss....)

Aku tak tahu apa aku buat ni betul ke tidak.
Tapi memang dah lain sangat. Sangat sangat.
Aku pun tak tahu perasaan aku sekarang.
Aku sedih, and aku ada rasa nak nangis.
And aku ada rasa nak luahkan kat someone, tapi semua orang busy.
Kalau aku layan hati aku ni, mahu menangis gak aku jam jam ni jugak karang.
Tipu kalau aku tak sedih.
And it hurts.
It hurts like hell.
Bukan 2 hari. Lamaaaa....

Ya Allah..
Bosannya aku!
Nak buat apa ni?
Habis semua kutu kat kepala aku mati. (not that aku ada kutu)
Arghhhh....

Boss gi JB 3 hari.
Yeay!

Who would've thought it's that easy?
I sure doesn't.
Eventhough aku leh rasa la sesikit.
Eheh.
I should've asked for more.
No wonder la dia tanya 2 kali.
Should've told me earlier la.

Should've, could've, would've punya kes la ni.
Ha ha ha.

Yeayyyyyyy!!!!!!
My beloved kiddo is back.
O chibi..... Sayang sangat budak kecik ni.
Sayang sangat sangat.
This post is dedicated to you.
Only YOU.

So, u guys have been denied, eh?
Padan muka!
It's time already pun, kan?

Aku nak post kat blog aku, sekali terpost kat blog Ami lak.
Cheh!

I am very disappointed.
Aku dah agak dah.
Senyap je, mesti takde punya.
Sangat sangat kiciwa rasa hati aku.

Salam

Dapat pun invite acik lalu Yahoo!
Tu ler safal
Ingatkan tak boleh hantar invite ke Yahoo!
Haha

This is impossible.
I've try my hardest.
I'm not going to give up.

U don't believe me, do you?
Aku tak tipu.
Berani kerana benar, kan?

Aku addicted to this song.
Mengembalikan memory masa kat Studio 1 layan Interzon.
Yes, i do miss that time.
The good ol' time.

Salam

Test. Saya tidak faham la. Nape acik tak dapat saya punya invite.
Ade masalah agaknya blogger ni.

Itu la masalahnya.
Kene la solve sendiri.
Orang lain boleh bagi nasihat je.
Sendiri yang kene buat, kene decide.
Tak boleh mintak orang lain tolong buat keputusan untuk diri sendiri.
Nanti ada lak alasan nak salahkan orang lain, kan? Betul tak?
Tanggung la sendiri, jangan asyik nak salahkan orang lain je.

RM5????
Kepala hotak ko berjambul RM5 je.
Penipu!
Orang bangang je yang percaya RM5 tu.
Ataupun orang yang tak pernah sakit seumur hidup dia.
Macam bangsat je menipu.
Sakitnya hati aku!

Sunburst, HERE I COME!

Menyakitkan hati aku betul.
Itu aku punya, aku nak balik aku punya!
Pun kene mengalah.
Bangsat betul!

Now i know, how hard it is.
Especially if there is a language barrier.
Damn hard!

I did good.
I know i did.
:)

Make everything easy for me, please.

How many times you tell me everything is going to be allright pun, butterflies will always be butterflies, my love.
Walaupun bebudak.
:)

Dream - K.Will (translated)

I should’ve been blind, to keep me from loving you
Why did I see the beauty inside of you?
It’s too late for me, you’ve already spread inside me
No matter how I try to wash and erase you, you spread all over my body
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn’t dream
I don’t be given any hope or love from you

I shouldn’t be able to dream, so my breathing won’t stop
Instead of leaving me here with you, take me away
I didn’t dream, I would be able to live
When I start to dream, I start to love
And matter all become harder to bear
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn’t give
I won’t be given any hope or love from you
From wanting you so much, I become greedy
Now I want to be happy
No matter how I try to give up on you
My eyes always stop when they see you, and dream
Slowly this pain makes me weary
I straighten my back, trying not to collapse
The world tells me I shouldn’t dream
Any hope or love
Won’t be given to me

credits to aheeyah.com

Esok balik.
Yeayyyyyyyyy..................

Aku tgh tolong anak buah aku set up dia punya blog.
Dia nak add link blog aku kat blog dia.
Aku iye je suruh dia bukak template, dia duk cakap ngan aku takde pun perkataan template kat dia punya blogger.
Sekali blogger sekarang ni dah tak guna perkataan template, dia guna layout.
Muahahahahahaha........
Mana la aku tau.
Nama aku set up blog aku tahun 2002, mana la aku tau sekarang its layout.
Ha ha ha.

The moment i set my eyes on you.
I felt everything around me moves.
And your love slowly moved in.
Into my heart.
All this time, where have you been?
Don't you know, i want you so.
You makes my soul complete.
I was enrapture by your love.
To this day, i still am.
I love you.

She cheated on you and still you wanna call her your soulmate?
SOULMATE?
Wake up and smell the coffee, dude!
wake the fucking up!
And some more, he's your friend.
Seriously, wake up!

Aku ingat nak gi layan CJ7 tadi ngan bespren aku.
Tapi sekali dia punya meeting abis lambat daa.......
Pastu lrt pun stuck kat Ampang Park.
ahahahaha.......

Aku harap sangat dapat kat situ, Chah.....
Aku malas dah nak cecarik tempat lain.
Environment pun best jer.
Aku dapat rasa yg aku takkan stress kat situ.
Doa untuk aku bebanyak yer?

Got this from email

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? - done my tongue once
2. Be serious or be funny? - funny
3. Boxers or briefs? - boxers :D
4. Whole or skim milk? - skim milk
5. Single or taken? - taken
6. Simple or complicated? - simple
7. Law or anarchy? - depends on the situation
8. Flowers or angels? - angels
9. Grey or gray? - grey
10. Read or write? - both
11. Color or black-and-white photos? - black n white, baru la nampak classic
12. Sunrise or sunset? - sunset pasal lepas tu leh tidoooo......
13. M&M's or Skittles? - M&M
14. Go to bed late or wake up late? - wake up late
16. TV or Radio? - TV
17. Is it POP or SODA? - SODA
18. X or O in Tic-Tac-Toe? - X
19. Leather purse or knit purse? - leather purse (kayaaaa....muahahahah)
20. Eat an apple or an orange? - apple
21. What came first the chicken or the egg? - chicken
22. Hot or Cold? - cold
23. Light or dark nail polish? - tak pakai. HARAM
24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? - tall
25. Sun or moon? - moon
26. Emerald or ruby? - emerald
27. Mt. Dew or Surge? - ha?
28. Left or right? - right
29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? - 1 best friend whom i can confide about anything
30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? - vanilla
31. High or Drunk? - dedua tak nak
32. Green beans or carrots? - carrots
33. Low fat or fat free? - low fat
34. What is your biggest fear in the world? - snakes
35. Silver jewelry or gold jewelry? - gold (leh gadai kalau sesak... muahahahah)
36. Kids or no kids? - kids!
37. Cat or dog? - cat
38. Half empty or half full? - half full
39. Mustard or ketchup? - ketchup
40. Hard cover books or soft cover books? - hard cover. leh tahan lama
41. Newspaper or magazine? - newspaper
42. Sandals or sneakers? - sandals
44. Red car or white car? - red car
45. Happy and poor or sad and rich? - happy n poor
46. Singing or dancing? - singing
47. Hugging or Kissing? - hugging
49. Happy or sad? - happy
50. Purple or green? - green. am a naturalist. :P

Aku dapat ni dalam buletin kat frenster, posted by salah seorang kawan aku.

this is just a joke, but full of lesson. (pada org yg tertentu sahaja)

While walking down the street one day a Malaysian Boleh Minister is tragically hit by a truck and dies. His soul arrives in heaven and is met by St. Peter at the entrance."Welcome to heaven," says St.Peter. "Before you settle in, it seems there is a problem. We seldom see a high official around these parts,you see, so we're not sure what to do with you.""No problem, just let me in," says the man."Well, I'd like to, but I have orders from higher up. What we'll do is have you spend one day in hell and one in heaven. Then you can choose where to spend eternity." "Really, I have made up my mind. I want to be in heaven," says the Yang Berhormat" I'm sorry, but we have our rules,"says St. Peter.
And with that, St. Peter escorts him to the elevator and he goes down,down,down to hell. The doors open and he finds himself in the middle of a green golf course. In the distance is a clubhouse and standing in front of it are all his friends and other politicians who had worked with him. Everyone is very happy and dressed in the finest batik there is. They run to greet him, shake his hand, and reminisce about the good times they had while getting rich at the expense of the people. They play a friendly game of golf and then indulge themselves on lobsters, caviar and the most expensive food there is. Also present is the devil, who really is a very friendly guy who has a good time dancing and telling jokes. They are having such a good time that before he realizes it, it is time to go. Everyone gives him a hearty farewell and waves while the elevator rises.The elevator goes up, up, up and the door reopens on heaven where St. Peter is waiting for him."Now it' s time to visit heaven."
So, 24 hours pass with the Yang Berhormat joining a group of contented souls moving from cloud to cloud,playing the harp and singing. They have a good time and, before he realizes it, the 24 hours have gone by and St.Peter returns."Well, then, you've spent a day in hell and another in heaven. Now choose your eternity."The Yang Berhormat reflects for a minute, then he answers: "Well, I would never have said it before, I mean heaven has been delightful, but I think Aiyam better off in hell." So St. Peter escorts him to the elevator and he goes down, down, down to hell. Now the doors of the elevator open and he's in the middle of a barrenland covered with waste and garbage. He sees all his friends, dressed in rags, picking up the trash and putting it in black bags as more trash falls from above.The devil comes over to him and puts his arm around his shoulder."I don't understand," stammers the Yang Berhormat.
"Yesterday I was here and there was a golf course and clubhouse, and we ate lobster and caviar,drank champagne, and danced and had a great time. Now there's just a wasteland full of garbage and my friends look miserable. What happened?"The devil looks at him, smiles and says, "Yesterday we were campaigning just like you during an election......Today you voted."

VOTE WISELY IN THE COMING ELECTION

Kan best telinga aku dengar, call aku n cakap baik-baik.
Rasa disayangi yang amat sangat.
Ehehehehehe.......

Selamat Tahun Baru Cina.

Khairul Syakirin.
I love you. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. Forever.

Padan muka kau.
Satu forum dah tau tembelang.
Buat jahat, memang la ada balasan.
Allah pun dah cakap, buat dosa, mesti ada balasan.
Tak nak kene balas, taubat la.
It's called KARMA.
What goes around comes around.
Bukan aku yang balas, dah ada orang lain tolong balaskan.
Muahahahahahahahah.......... (gelak macam dah masuk syurga, kata ayah aku....)

Kalau sebab aku tak datang, you want to end it, so be it.
Memasing dah letih dan bosan dengan memasing.

Meet The Spartans



Aku tgk cerita ni tadi ngan bestest bespren aku kat Midvalley.
Layan giler ah cerita ni, but could be better.
It's a spoof from 300, not as good as scary movie, though.
Sementara nak tunggu wayang start, makan teppanyaki, marble cheesecake from secret recipe and pure vanilla ice blended from coffee bean n tea leaf. Result? Kepeningan tahap cipan yg rasa nak muntah keluar semua isi perut. Muahahahahaha........
Gila betul balas dendam kita, Chah.
Almaklumlah, dah lama tak jumpa.
Kene la berhabis-habisan, tak? (read: alasan je!)

Ayah selalu cakap, belajar sampai pandai.
Tak semestinya rajin, tapi mesti kena pandai.

Sambung malam yer?
Miahahahaha.....

Kiddo, akak bukak forum mesra tadi.
Tergerak hati nak baca mesej lelama dalam inbox.
What happen to us, yer?
Akak ada buat salah ke?
If i am, i'm sorry ye chibi?
Akak sayang ko sangat, ko tak sayang akak ker?
Akak rindu budak kecik yang dulu.
Yang dulu-dulu. Yang kalau derhaka kat akak, nanti masuk neraka. ehehehe.....
Chibi!

Takde idea la.
Nanti malam la sambung.
Tak jadi la sambung malam, aku sambung sekarang la.
Eh, nanti malam la.

Saya Sebatang Pen.

Saya sebatang pen. Nama saya Parker. Saya dilahirkan di sebuah kilang di Amerika Syarikat. Terdapat banyak kawan kawan seperjuangan saya di situ. Kemudian, kami dibungkus dan dimasukkan ke dalam kotak untuk dieksport ke negara-negara lain.

Kami semua dimasukkan ke dalam sebuah kontena dan di bawa berlayar di atas sebuah kapal laut. Saya telah dihantar ke sebuah negara bernama Malaysia. Saya diturunkan di sebuah pelabuhan bernama Pelabuhan Klang. Kemudian, kotak yang berisi saya dan kawan-kawan dipunggah ke dalam sebuah lori untuk diagih-agihkan ke serata Malaysia.

Saya telah dibawa dan dipamerkan di sebuah kedai di Jalan Raja Laut. Semua orang memuji kecantikan saya, tetapi tidak semua orang dapat memiliki saya kerana harga saya adalah mahal.

Pada suatu hari, datang dua lelaki ke kedai tuan saya. Mereka membelek-belek saya dan sebatang lagi kawan saya. Kemudian, saya terdengar salah seorang lelaki itu berkata, "saya ambik yang ini la tokey, dua ya?". Kemudian, tuan kedai itu pun membungkus saya dan sebatang lagi rakan saya yang turut dipamerkan di kedai itu.

Saya dibawa menaiki kereta selama hampir 2 jam. Kemudian saya terdengar lelaki itu berkata lagi, "mesti budak 2 orang tu suka dan bangga dapat pen ni". Kemudian rakan lelaki itu menjawab, "aku rasa kalau plain macam ni je, tak terasa sangat. Apa kata kalau kita ukir nama diorang kat pen ni, lagi special". "Betul jugak cakap kau tu", kata lelaki pertama tadi.

Kemudian, aku dibawa pula oleh lelaki pertama tadi ke Klang, untuk mengukir nama 2 orang yang bakal menerima aku dan rakanku. Semasa proses mengukir nama dilakukan, aku berasa amat sakit, tetapi bangga kerana aku bakal berkhidmat dengan tuan ku yang sebenar tidak lama lagi. Badanku diukir dengan nama Fasihatul Husna Binti Rais dan rakanku diukir dengan nama Ismail Bin Mohammad. Setelah selesai proses pengukiran, aku dibawa pulang oleh lelaki itu. Kemudian, aku dibalut dengan sehelai kertas yang amat cantik.

Hari yang aku nanti-nantikan telah tiba. Aku bakal bertemu dengan tuan ku yang sebenar sebentar lagi. Aku berasa amat berdebar-debar. Adakah tuan ku akan menyayangiku atau akan mensia-siakan aku? Aku berasa amat takut dan juga gembira pada masa yang sama. Rupa-rupanya aku akan diberikan kepada seorang pelajar cemerlang dalam peperiksaan UPSR. Apa UPSR itu, aku pun tidak tahu tapi aku berasa sungguh bangga. Aku juga dapat merasa yang tuan ku gembira mendapat aku kerana dia memegang aku dengan sungguh erat.

Apabila tuan ku sampai sahaja di rumah, dia terus membuka bungkusanku. Dia menjerit, "mak! Acik dapat pen Parker, siap ada tulis nama lagi. Bestnya!". Kemudian aku tahu, bahawa tuan ku amat menyayangiku dan akan menjagaku dengan cermat. Aku berasa sungguh bahagia. Tuan ku jarang menggunakan aku kerana dia amat menyayangiku.

Malang tidak berbau, pada suatu malam di tahun 1996, semasa orang sibuk bersiap-siap untuk kenduri kahwin kakak tuan ku, aku telah dicuri seseorang. Aku telah digunakan oleh bapa tuan ku untuk mengisi dan menandatangani borang kahwin kakak tuan ku. Kemudian, orang itu terus menyimpan aku ke dalam poketnya. Aku ingin menjerit, tetapi apalah dayaku, aku hanya sebatang pen!

Aku sayang pen Parker tu sangat.
Sangat sangat.
Tu hadiah aku ngan Mail jadik best student UPSR sekolah aku.
Aku ingat lagi masa aku amik pen tu dari Cikgu Abdul Rahman, dia pesan kat aku, "belajar elok-elok, jaga pen ni baik-baik. Hadiah ni adalah tanda kasih sayang kami semua cikgu untuk kamu".
Memang bangsat orang yang curik pen aku tu.
Kalau dia "ter"ambik, takkan takleh pulang balik?
Bukan tak tau tu pen aku, pasal ada nama aku engraved kat pen tu.
Kalau tak kenal nama aku pun, mesti kenal nama ayah aku, kan?
And takkan tak ingat dari rumah mana datangnya pen yang ada dalam kocek tu, kan?
Kesimpulannya, dia memang sengaja nak curik pen aku.
Memang tak bahagia la dia seumur hidup!

Ade ke ajak aku balik kampung.
Malas!
Balik kampung aku ok jugak.
Cakap jer esok tengahari nak balik sini.
Macam aku tak pernah terkena.
Cheh!

Macam Sheeda cakap, kalau sehari tak gaduh, tak boleh ker?
Tak!
Muahahahahaha.......
Tapi kalau gaduh tah berapa saat jer.
Dulu aku tak menjawab, sekarang apa saja dia cakap, aku jawab jer.
Pedulik apa aku.
Mwahahahahahaha........

Aku meng'quote' kata kata kawan abang ipar aku:
"Loyal and trust is two different entity"
"loyal to yr country....but u mistreated it..by misusing the privilige given"
"trust given...u broke it silently.. break it in so many ways...such as ponteng kelija...time keje chat"
The very the true la.
Untuk pertama kalinya, serious talk ngan mamat nih.
Ahahahahahaha.....
Selama ni, buat aku sangap n sasau jer.

Gila.
Kan best kalau gila.
Takde dosa.
Masuk syurga.
Camana cara nak jadi gila secara semulajadi, eh?
Hua hua hua.....

Aku malas cakap benda berulang-ulang.
Annoying tau tak?
Suka hati aku la nak cakap ke tidak.
Jangan paksa orang, kalau kau tau kau sendiri pun tak suka kena paksa.
Menyakitkan hati betul.
Aku dulu pun sebab nak elakkan bergaduh jer, kalau tak, tak kuasa aku.

Heath Ledger is dead.
I love to watch him in Brokeback Mountain.
Eventhough aku kurang sikit dengan manusia songsang yg memang kene laknat ngan Allah ni.
To me, his acting is superb.
U can feel his love lost masa dia bau baju Jack.
Nasib baik aku ada "gudang" wayang, dapatla jugak aku tgk cerita ni.
Ehehehehehe........

Nak menyamar konon.
Cheh!
Ingat aku tak tau ke?
Aku lagi lama menceburkan diri dalam dunia flirting ni la.
I am the master of the universe, ahahahahaha........
Aku call, tak nak angkat.
Mic rosak kunun, cheh!
Aku call nombor lagi satu, tak dapat.
Dahla memang ngaku ngan aku nak beli no Digi.
Ape la.
Tak reti langsung nak berlakon.
Kegagalan berada di mana mana.
Yeay!
Aku terer!

Aku memang takde mood.
Dengan sakit berdenyut-denyut.
Dahla stimulus aku tak online. Ahahahahahah....

Gila sakit hati aku tengok Martha malam tadi.
Boleh sarikata untuk succulent is sukulen.
Bangang!
Tolong la, sarikata tu untuk orang yang kurang faham bahasa Inggeris untuk tahu apa maksudnya.
Kalau succulent is translated as sukulen, apa kejadahnya?
Baik dengar je apa yang Martha sebut instead of baca sarikata.
Nasib baik DIA dah tak keje kat tv bangang ni.
Kalau tak, mau kaw kaw aku 'bagi' kat DIA malam tadi.
Ehehehehe........

Tau ko takut hilang aku.
Padan muka.

Aku pun nak join gi makan kat Perantau.
Tapi nape boifren aku tak join gak?
Ahakssss......
Takleh la, jalan sikit gi toilet pun sakit, inikan pulak nak menapak gi Perantau, mau meraung aku.
Melampau sangat la pulak sakitnya.

There, i said it.
Baru ko tau.
Sakitnya hati aku.
Langsung terdiam.
Don't mess around with me.
Aku diam tak bermakna aku bangang.
Aku lagi pandai dari kau.
Aku senyap selama ni sebab aku nak build marah aku.
Sebab kalau aku asyik cakap, tak jalan.
Aku cakap sekali jer, kan tu dah sakit hati kau.
Padan muka.

Go on. Keep hurting me.
You really want me to give up on you, huh?
It hurts.
I almost give up on you.
Almost.The word is just at the tip of my tongue the other night.
Thank God, i still can hold it back.
Been trying to ignore it, but I have feelings, you know.
I'm not some goddamn robot.
I'm a hot blooded human being, for heaven's sake.
I have a heart that pumps blood through my veins.

Don't think i can hold it much longer.
This is wayyyyyyyy too much.
It hurts the first time.
Ignored.
Then it got worse and worse.
And you're stepping off the boundaries.
Please, stop it.

Aku tengah baca John Harvey wasted years ngan living proof sekarang ni. 2 in 1.
Baru 2 bulan aku tak gi kedai uncle, sekali signboard dah tukar la.
Colorful lagik.
Tu baru 2 bulan aku tak pegi, kalau 2 tahun, langsung tukar cat.
Muahahahahahah......
Siap tanya aku lagi mana hilang.
I'm around uncle, just don't have the time to drop by.
Don't worry, i'm still 1 of your most loyal customer.

Sebab tu aku malas nak gi Kajang.
Aku dah agak dah, mesti jumpa orang MPKj punya.
Arghhhhhh!!!!!!!!
Nak ambik tindakan tatatertib kat aku pulak.
Nak berapa ratus surat perletakan jawatan nak aku hantar?
Dahla breach contract.
Memang la buat my blood go upstairs macam ni.
Bodoh betul.
Dahla dapat anak lilin.
Muahahahahaha.....
Giler artis. Gila kuasa. Gila pangkat!
GILA!

Kalau nak something, sikit punya baik ngan aku.....
Bila time aku mintak tolong, macam bangsat jer.
Aku bukan mintak tolong pun sebenarnya, memang dia yang patut buat!
Buat la macam ni.
Doa orang teraniaya ni makbul.
Ko ada anak pompuan, nak aku jadi jahat n doakan anak ko jadi pelacur ke?
Kalau nak kira, aku tolong lagi banyak dari apa yang ko tolong aku.
Ko kene tangkap khalwat pun, kalau tak aku yg jadi penjamin betina tu, amacam?
Nak berkira ngan aku?
1 , 2, 3 dan seterusnya.....
Ahahahahaha.......
Aku akan keep hounding you.
Sampai ko lemas!

CANCER - The Cutie <---- (oh yes i am!)
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person
you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it.
Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, but will KNOCK
your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.


Love of my life : LIBRA - The Lame One <----- (ehehehe)
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and
sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet!
however not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... u might end up
crying....

Aku ingat nak login kat sini guna gmail, tapi jari aku laju jer taip yahoo punya email.
Punya la tak synchronize otak ngan jari aku, ahaksss......
Tadi tolong ayong n asu kat karipap, n satu je yg aku tak suka, nanti tapak tangan aku especially yg kat ibu jari mesti sakit giler. Tapi takpela, amal jariah, kan?
Ehehehehe......
Tuhari aku ada jumpa satu blog yg penuh ngan gambar kucing, sekali lupa lak nak favorite, kiciwa betul pasal aku ingat aku nak link kat blog aku. Cheh!

Kiddo, did i do anything wrong?
Kenapa lately akak rasa ko macam nak avoid dari akak jer?
Serious cold.
I can feel the coldness here, tarak tipu punya.
The way you talk to me, sms me, memang lain gila.
If you really want to avoid me, do tell.
Akak leh faham n terima punya, no worries.
Kita bukan baru kenal semalam, dah 6 tahun dah.
Akak sayang ko. Betul betul sayang.
From the bottom of my heart, i really really love you, kiddo.
So, kalau nak ditch me pun, at least tell me, n tell me why.
I need and want to know, aight?

Kesan patah tangan aku masa umur 6 tahun yg dianggap terseliuh tu makin teruk sekarang.
Sakit. Lenguh. Ngilu.

hmmmm......

Kat area umah kakak aku, minyak masak berasaskan kelapa sawit tiada....
Aku heran, Malaysia ni ada berapa kangkang kera ladang kelapa sawit?
Sebab setahu aku, kalau aku on the way nak balik kampung, ada berjuta juta kangkang kera ladang kelapa sawit yg akan aku lalu, jadi, camana leh takde minyak?
Belum start ada kete guna biodiesel lagi
Nanti akan goreng ikan guna air menyamar jadi minyak.

Kakak aku kata aku gila!
Hahahahahahahaha..........

Aku kat umah, believe it or not
giler lama tak pernah update......

Looking back at me I see that I Never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Somethin' strong like a drug that gets meHigh
What I really meant to sayIs I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to sayIs I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so
Cold, to you, I'm sorry 'bout all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You can see me stand on my own again'
Cause now I can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Somethin' strong like a drug that got meHigh
What I really meant to sayIs I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to sayIs I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so coldI never meant to be
So coldI never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me
that I keepLocked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to meI never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have knownI guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say (Say)Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am(I am) I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so coldWhat I really meant to say (Say)Is I'm sorry for the way (Sorry for the way) I am(I am) I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold