My condition is getting worst.
One by one sakit datang.

I wonder.
Is my time almost up?

I thought we are not gonna go there.
But we did.

Weh, ni dah berapa hari tak update ni, pesal?

Sebab aku lupa aku ada blog.

Wahahahahahaha.....

I spend too much time looking at my screen?
Of course la.
Takkan aku nak ngadap tengok muka ko lak kot?

It's been 6 years.
Wow.
Not bad.
Still going strong.
Masih gagah lagi.
Ha ha.

Kenapa perut aku sakit?
Dah 2 minggu.

Malam semalam memang malam ini dalam sejarah la.
Tak pernah aku terlajak sampai macam tu sekali.
Giler ah.
Memang sejarah sungguh.

How can u say that i hate you?
I never liked you from the start.
Jadi tiada perasaan aku untuk kamu.

Aku heran, jauh sangat ke KL ngan Kajang.
Asal aku bagitau aku duk Kajang n kerja kat KL, semua nak tanya.
"Tak jauh ke nak gi keje?"
It is not.
I repeat, it fucking is not.
Bukannya aku stay kat Bukit Kayu Hitam n keje kat Johor Bahru and kene travel everyday.
Stupid.
So, kalau keje kat KL, aku kene stay KL la?
Macam tu?
Tak boleh ke keje kat KL, stay kat Shah Alam ke, Klang ke, Subang ke, Gombak ke..
Tak boleh?
Kalau iye pun nak mengayat, nak flirt kat YM, carik la soalan yg bunyi pandai sikit.
eg : Awak nak tak saya jemput n hantar awak balik keje hari2?
Haaaaaa......
Tanya aku soalan camtu, kompom saat tu jugak aku ngaku aku gelfren kau.
Ha ha ha

NEAR MISS - Separated

She can't love you anymore
Coz you killed her once before
And everything that you trust
Separated
Soon your world starts to fall
Then all your luck you lost it all
Through this time you went your way
Everything changes day by day
Free yourself from the pain
Live your life you jumped the train
I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all

You can't love her it's the end
Coz she'll kill you once again
And everything that you loved
Separated
Soon you'll realize it's the time
Find yourself when hearts collide
And maybe things weren't meant
A life alone is a life well spent

Free yourself from the pain
Live your life you jumped the train
I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all

I never wanted to see you fall
I always wanted to please you all
Or see you die again
I never wanted this to be the end

Menyesal ke?
Ha ha.
Aku tak heran pun.
Padan muka.
Siapa suruh start dulu?

Aku rimas.
Kalau kau cakap banyak kali.
What do you expect?
Me to love you back?
Unfortunately, I dont.
Tak kira la berapa ratus juta kali kau cakap.
Cakap sekali sudah
Bukannya aku ni bangang sangat tak faham.

Mood aku lak cam bangsat je hari ni.
Life is a journey.
Yea, right.
Kalau perjalanan kau ok, best la cakap camtu.
Cuba kalau perjalanan cam celaka, mampus tak cakap camtu punya.
Mesti kau cakap camni punya, "life, mine especially is HELL!"
Tak percaya?
Nak bet?
Sure?
Jangan menyesal, lately, mamat Irish yg jaga pot of gold kat hujung pelangi tu tetiap malam tido ngan aku.
Without his pants on.
Ha ha.

Selamat Hari Guru.
Untuk semua guru yang pernah mengajar aku.

Cikgu Junaidah, Cikgu Sabri, Cikgu Kamsiah, Cikgu Hamid, Cikgu Nizar, Cikgu Teh Nazhura, Cikgu Jamaluddin, Cikgu Haslina dan Cikgu Hasmaliza.

Kalian semua memberi impak terbesar dalam hidup aku.
Dan kerana itulah, nama kalian masih terpahat dan tersemat dalam hati aku.
Forever.

Terima kasih.
Atas segalanya.
Mendewasakan.
Itu utama.

Kenapa aku rasa macam nak menangis ni?

Hope.
Kenapa bagi harapan.
Pastu tinggal macam tu je?
Kejam.

Why is it so hard.
To say NO.
Am I that kind?
Don't think so.
But it's so hard.
So damn fucking hard.
To say NO.

Wallet aku hilang.
Tertinggal kat a place but just consider it lost la.
Senang sikit.
Aku buat report kat Balai Jln. Bandar (H.S. Lee)
Aku dah call semua bank.
Aku tak pernah hilang benda penting camni seumur hidup aku.
Damn!
Well, there's always a start for everything, kan?
But i dont want this kind of shitty start, ahakssss.....
Aku tgk kat site JPN, first time hilang IC, kene bayar RM100
Kepala hotak la!
Bukan aku sengaja (ehm... aku tak sengaja, aku 'ter'tinggal) nak hilangkan IC aku, babe....
Melampau sungguh.
Giler ah makan duit JPN ni.
Bikin aku kusut jer, tetengah bulan ni nak kene bayar serat pulak.
Dahla ATM semua pun hilang.
Kusut ah!

Aku tgk cerita ni last saturday.
Aku sangat expect cerita ni sangat seram.
Sebab dia cerita horror dari Jepun.
Tapi......
Macam sial, celaka bangsat je cerita ni.
Tak seram langsung.
Tak suspense langsung.
Sekali pun takde buat aku terkejut cerita ni.
Sampai ada sorang minah ni boleh jerit "blah la bodoh!" dalam panggung.
Tak ke bangsat cerita ni namanya?
Nasib baik bukan aku bayar tiket.
Kalau aku bayar, mau aku bakar je Jepun.
Neway, thanks la budak, belanja akak tengok cerita ni.
Memang cam sial, kan?
Baik tengok Iron Man.

DUFFY - MERCY

Yeah Yeah Yeah x4

I love you
but i gotta stay true
my morals got me on my knees
I'm begging please stop playing games

I don't know what this is
cos you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

Chorus
You got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why won't you release me
I said release me

Now you think that I
will be something on the side
but you got to understand
that i need a man
who can take my hand yes i do

I don't know what this is
but you got me good
just like you knew you would

I don't know what you do
but you do it well
I’m under your spell

You got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
you got me begging you for mercy
why wont you release me
I said you’d better release yeah yeah yeah

I'm begging you for mercy
yes why wont you release me
I'm begging you for mercy

you got me begging
you got me begging
you got me begging

Mercy, why wont you release me
I'm begging you for mercy
why wont you release me

you got me begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy
I'm begging you for mercy

Why wont you release me yeah yeah
break it down

Nak gi jumpa bomoh?
Tak payah la kak oi.
Betul, takde rasa pape pun
Nak kata aku soulless, tak jugak.
I still can feel the air around me.
Eh, ni cerita pasal aku ke?
Ha ha ha.......

One of the reason why plastic, coz me d me is like a magneto.
Attract bebenda yang tak sepatutnya.
Exactly cam magnet.
Sebab kalau plastik, dia cair je, takkan attract pape.
Ape labu? Ko suka makan kerepek? Aku pun suka, lelagi kerepek ubi sira ngan sambal.
Auuummmmmm.........

Batuk dan demam.

Ada keluar ngan Aqil ke malam tadi?
Ha? takde pun. Nape?
Siap panggil yang lagi?
Ala... Come on la, he's younger than me, so calling him yang is nothing la....
Nothing? Kalau takde pape, takkan panggil yang? (hangs up)

That's plastic.

Ada keluar ngan Aqil ke malam tadi?
Ada. We even spent the night together. I already wank your lil' boy 4 times. You should join. Then we have 3some together. Wanna try?

Me d me.

Ha ha ha ha......

It felt soooooooooo good to be back.
Serious shit punya cakap ni.
Rupanya ada hikmah atas apa yang jadi semalam.
Dah lama sangat kene tekan, sekali dia mantul balik, haaaaaa....
Ambik kau.
The trigger has been pulled
And my cycle dah complete.
Metamorfosis dah lengkap.
Dah takde fake plastic lagi dah.
Apa nampak, itu dapat.
Tara suka kalu, boleh blah!

Aku nak tengok Iron Man.

Dan aku nak menangis puas-puas.
Bukan, aku bukan nak menangis sambil tengok cerita Iron Man.
Aku nak menangis dengan diri aku sendiri.

Bila aku dah set mind aku nak tgk movie tu, sekali tetiba kene tengok movie lain, langsung aku tak enjoy.
Aku tengok for the sake of watching sebab ada depan mata.
Damn!