Sabar.

Aku sangat jatuh cinta dengan lagu ni.

Sick Puppies - What Are You Looking For?

Dan ini liriknya.

I walk the line of the disappointed
I celebrate when I'm in pain
My heart and mind can be disjointed
I built a bed in this hole I made
I recognize that I'm damaged
I sympathize that you are too
But I wanna breathe without feelin' so self-conscious
But it's hard when the welt's starin' at you

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you working for
What are you searching for
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love

You join the line of the getting richer
You keep your face but it's movin' slow
You are defined by all that you have hoarded
But you're surprised it doesn't fill up the hole.

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you coping for
What are you hoping for
Love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love

I'll never be what I see on the tv screen
I just keep dreaming of what I'm never gonna be
I can't think of a better way to waste my time then try

Another piece of the puzzle that doesn't fit
You throw your arms up, you're so damn sick of it
What are you hurtin' for
What are you searching for
Love love love love
You won't be thinking of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what you are paying for,
What you are praying for
Love love love love

You won't be thinkin' of cars when
You're on your death bed and dyin'
You'll only be thinkin' of what are you workin' for,
What are you waitin' for

Kenapa buat blog hanya boleh dibaca oleh pembaca yang dijemput?
Kedekut?
Takut org yg kenal baca tentang keburukan kau?
Kalau jawapan yg kedua, baik tak payah ada blog in the first place.
Dah la.
Malas aku.

And thank you my friend for introducing me to the haunted Sick Puppies song.
Thank you so very much.

Owh, aku tak pernah beritahu ke yang kalau aku hilang perasaan, aku akan ignore semua orang?
You already have a taste of it malam tadi kan?
Too bad, it must have slipped my mind.
To tell.
My bad.
Anyway, you almost pass the test.
Next time, kalau aku dah bagitau aku hilang perasaan, biarkan aku.
Let me be with myself.
Kau tak perlu tunjukkan concern kau dengan telefon aku sebanyak 68 kali.
Sudahnya, aku off telefon.
Dan aku memang lupa nak beritahu.
Jadinya, kau salah, dan aku terlupa.
Balanced. Jadi neutral.
Tapi yang bangsatnya, pepagi lagi kau dah spoil mood aku.
Nasib baik aku rasa nak layan.
Kalau tak, memang phone aku akan off satu hari ni.

Aku tengok cerita ni ahad lepas.
Best gila.
Aku rasa entertainted sangat.
Sangat sangat.
Despite ape ape je la.
Ha ha

Believe or not to BELIEVE?

SMS.

"Kalau bby nak tau, B dah anggap bby mcm nyawa B sendiri."

Owh please.
You think i will melt like a 16 year old schoolgirl if you send me that sms?
Hello! Reality check. 10.07.1980.
Occay?
You want to know what i feel while reading that sms?
I feel like slapping you. Hard. And i also feel like wrenching my gut and throw out everything that is in my stomach.
I feel sick. To every inch of muscles, bones, nerves and everything.

I need to stop all this.
All this sweet pillow talk.
Been there. Fuck that. Ha ha.
I've heard almost all this shitty things called pick up line. And sweet pillow talk.
You can't get into my pants if you can fit into it.
Get it?
Get a grip. Grow up.
I dont fall for that kind of shit anymore. Anymore.

Sedar la lelaki oi.
Bukan semua perempuan akan jatuh melutut depan kangkang kau kalau kau 'berayat' macam tu.
Sikit sikit sudah.
Cukupla dengan your care, your love (if there's one) and lovey dovey smses.
Tak payah la buat ayat camtu.
I'm one of a kind, remember?
Ayat ayat macam tu hanya buat aku rasa menyampah.
Yang amat sangat.
Dan juga buat aku tumbuh tanduk.
Dan juga buat aku rasa macam nak test engkau.
Maka, my alter ego akan keluar.
Remember Liya?
Yes. She's back.
But this time, not with a vengeance.
This time, she wants to mess around.
Lagipun dah lama dia duduk dalam almari.
Sian dia.
Pulak tu, almari tu takleh gi Narnia. Double kesian.
So, be prepared.
Sebab selain Liya, aku juga ada Chah.
Kan Chah, kan?

Benda yang datang ngan cepat selalunya doesn't last long, kan Chah kan?

Puteh.
Well, aku kene la carik someone yg fairer than me.
Why?
Sebab i dont have the luxury to have a fair skin macam Maya Karin.

Chah,
I am the bestest best friend someone could ask for.
Right?
Ha ha.

Of all the people, you should know better.


Lifehouse - You And Me

What day is it and in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Again.
I lost.
Mana mamat Irish ni?
Dah majuk tanak tido ngan aku ke?
I need u.
Not your four leaf clover.
YOU.

I really really hate to loose.
To the max.
Benci tau!

I pun benci Republic Chech.
Nape you all kalah?
Portugal pun I benci gak.
Sape suruh you all menang?
Kan I dah kalah ngan I punya B.
Benci tau.
Dah la haritu pun I kalah jugak.
I nak gak menang.
Tapi B I ni tanak kasi I menang.

B, malam ni bagi Baby menang, k?
Tak kira.
Nak menang gak.
You know I hate to loose.
Right?

Jangan tengok The Orphanage.
Unless ko memang suka dengar orang bercakap bahasa Sepanyol.

Dan aku benci Itali.
Kenapa kalah ngan Belanda?
3 - 0 lak tu.
Kan aku pun dah kalah.
Arghhhhhh..........
Aku patut kata aku sokong Belanda.
Demmit.

B,
I'm sorry if what i said got you thinking.
But i'm just telling you what me n she thinks.
It's a HUGE different, B.
HUGE.
And what she said got me thinking too.
I dont wanna be that damn plastic no more.
NO more.
I know it hurts.
And you will do anything, anything at all to have me.
Yes.
I know that.
B pun ada cakap kan, if anything bagitau je.
Tak nak ada rahsia kan?
Jangan B find out later by yourself, kan?
Thats what I did.
No more secrets.
Let me trust you with all my hearts. And you too to me.
No more secrets, k B?
It's not like she didnt like you.
It's call precaution, B. Precaution.
The possibility is there, kan?
Who knows.
It's not like you know what will happen in the future.
Apa nak jadi esok pun kita tak tahu, kan?
So, it's just a precaution.
A head's up.
Peringatan.
Coz shit happens.
And it will smack you right in the face.

Whatever it is.
I love you.
And I know that you love me too.
It's all that matters.
Aside from a very good house, a damn well good car and every month's shopping spree.
He he.

Ignorance is a bliss.


Suka ke?
Ntah la.
Aku rasa la kot.
Tapi tak kisah la.
Nobody cared anyway, rite?
But of course Ayah do.
Thats what matters the most.The ultimatum.
Thats it la.
Kalau rasa nyusahkan sangat, ignore je.
Aku tak suruh pun.
Lets live our life differently now.
Starting from today. This moment.
Dah tak payah care. Concern.
Waste of time.
Let's get retarded, bak kata Black Eyed Peas.
Dah lama tak makan black eyed peas, masak kari, campur pedal ayam.
Dedulu masa aku kekecik, kalau ada kenduri tahlil, mesti ada lauk ni.
Now, it's hard to find lauk ni kat memana kenduri.
Dah pupus kot.
Or, org dah malas nak mengerjakan lauk ni.
Or, black eyed peas ni dah extinct.
He he he........

Dah lama aku tak buat gila macam malam tadi.
Ha ha..


Kalau aku kata yang aku takde perasaan pun kat either 1 of you, camana?
Would you guys believe it?
Even dia yg ada kat Kg. Idaman tu pun, dah tak ada sekelumit rasa.
Tapi dia yang ada kat Terengganu sekarang, ada sikit la.
Sikit sangat.
Yang kalau kene tiup angin kipas baru nak hidup, kompom terbang semua.
Nak kata hati aku dah mati, tak jugak.
It's just aku dah tak berapa nak teruja ngan fling2 ni semua.
Dah takde rasa pun.
Mungkin sebab dah penat kot.
Dan juga dah tua.
Ha ha.

Whatever la.