Don't try to figure me out, just love me the way I am now..
If it's too hard for you to do, leave me....
Should i smile, because you are there, or should i cry because you only gonna be there, not here with me?
I belong to me, so leave me be while my world is coming down on me....

What am I to you?
Tell me darling true..

What is wrong with me in the first place, rite Chah?
But like you said, its bad...
Not like, its bad, BAD!
So, what the heck, kan?

Pepagi dah buat mood aku swing..
DAMN!

Honesty is the best policy

Being honest is good, but too honest is very bad at times...
I want you but I'm hating it!

Confusion..
What exactly that I want in my life...
Hmmmm...
I don't have the answer rite now...
Boundaries. Always remember that there's a LIMIT!
Please Q, remind yourself...
Remind yourself all the times...
I love me very much...
I'm not gonna hurt myself, for sure!

IGNORE....
I love to do that, rite?
I'm lost, totally.

Cut my hair already...
By a second class amateur....
Ahahah... Kidding only, bro'...... :)
My head feels lighter, n my hair is easier to manage...
Dont have to tie it all the time....
(Cian rambut aku, assikla kene ikat jer)

This headache is really killing me.....
Aaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Confirm, im getting a haircut...
I'll continue this later....

Yesterday was fun.....
I caught ikan puyu (huge!) n thinking of eating it, but puasa la....
Eheh...
Hmmm... Been thinking of getting a hair cut...
And also another pierce on my ear (right one)
Hmmm...
Also a tounge pierce... Looks cool, lemme think bout it first....
Hmmmm..... To hell with what other people think!
Hello, reality check, THIS IS MY LIFE YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT!
MINE and MINE ONLY!

Hey kiddo, you know i love you so much. So much!
Sorry bout yesterday, i was sooo not in the fucking mood to be played around with..
I was sooo tired..
You can blame it on PMS.... Ehehehe....
Anyway, i just wanna say that im sorry for hanging up the phone yesterday..
Sorry....
You know that this sister of yours really love you, dont you?
Love you so much, kiddo....

Now, i'm watching Bleach..
Since when this anime craze have got me?
Since i first watch Ninjaii back in 2001...
But i just keep 'em low...

Two nites in a row...
Hmmm.....
I missed u so much....

Sampai macam tu sekali ye?
Aku bukannya nak berpeleseran, tapi kalau ko fikir aku macam tu, suits yourself!
Think whatever you want to think about me....
But i have learn my lesson, i really do!

Everybody's better than I am
I think everybody's better than me
And everybody's swell I guess
They're doing well some more or less
Everybody's better than I am I think
You know to be king you don't need a castle
To row back to shore can sure be a hassle
Why you walk around with your head low down
Everybody's acting like I don't matter
Everybody's into the act
Too many of them to avoid
It could be that I'm paranoid
I matter as a matter of fact
And you know to be king you don't need a castle
To row back to shore can sure be a hassle
Why you walk around with your head low down
The true king rules without a crown
If your boat's afloat after the typhoon
Row it safely back to the lagoon
And nevermind the green grass you won't mow
Or what it is you have or don't to show
Or what it is you can or can't afford
The good are good without reward
You know to be king you don't need a castle
To row back to shore can sure be a hassle
Why you walk around with your head low down
Everybody's better than I am
I think everybody's better than me
And everybody's swell I guess
They're doing well some more or less
Everybody's better than I am I think
Everybody's acting like I don't matter
Everybody's into the act
Too many of them to avoid
It could be that I'm paranoid
I matter as a matter of fact
And you know to be king you don't need a castle
No no! No No! No no no no
To row back to shore can sure be a hassle
You know to be king you don't need a castle

......

Why am I the one that has to go this Monday?
Hmmm.....
Life's like that, I guess....

Sef Gonzales

I was reading Berita Harian online when i stumble upon his name this morning. He's a Filipino borned Australian that lives in a wealthy suburb called Noth Ryde. Then, I began searching for him on the Internet. The one thing that caught my attention was, besides that ke killed (read : stabbed to death) both his parents and beats his only sister to death using a baseball bat is that this horrifying mass murder occurs on my birthday. 10th of July 2001. The very day i turned 21. Whewww....

How can you kill the person that brought you up in this world, i mean, logically, HOW?
He's not insane, very far from retarded, yet he has the guts to kill his own parents. Yes, you can blame it on the pressure his parents giving him, being an Asian in a "white people" country (im not being a racist here, so please), but how much pressure do you think, that he needs to build up so much hatred in him, that he can take his parents own life? If he shot them, it's acceptable for me, (not that i agree in him killing his parents) because one fatal shot, can killed a person instantly, but he choose to stab them, giving time for them to suffer, bleeds to death, and continuosly stabbing. Oh my god!

And how can he beats his 18 years old sister to death with a baseball bat. He keeps beating and beating and beating untill she lay motionless on the floor. And after he was put under arrest, the police interrogate him, he was telling them lies all the way from beginning. He even spray the wall of his living room that reads FUCK OFF ASIANS, to put the blame on other people, but ends up police found the chemical compound of the spray on his shirt.

He is found guilty of murdering both his parents and his sister and sentenced to three life terms for all his action.

Yeay....
Anime favourite aku dah abesss....
GTO pun dah ada...
Tinggal nak burn dedua lam cd jer....

Petang ni ada dinner...
Kat Sunway...
Thank you Yazleen....
Melepas Malaysian Idol...
Ah, perut lebih penting dari mata...
Muahahahah......

Nape aku rasa tak besh ni?
Cam tak sedap hati ler....

Kalau ko call aku dah sampai dekat 10 kali, aku tak angkat gak fon tu...
Tu maknanya i'm ignoring you..
I dont wanna talk to you..
I dont even wanna hear you say hello to me...
Pesal la tu pun tak paham?
Benak sangat otak ko tuh., kenapa?
Memang buduh tahap ke 100 betul la....
Buzz off la wei!

Adui...
Pinggang aku belah kiri ni sakit la...
Pesal ye?

Nu chapter coming soon...
Be patience.

Thank you so much, my friend....
I really really appreciate what you did to me...
Thank you....

*Grammar hancur babe!*

Cuaca mandom jer....
Autumn lah katakan...
Autumn katanya... Wakakakakak.....

Penat ah....

2 hari aku bercuti...
Settlekan segalanya...
Moga dipermudahkan...

Orang kebanyakan...
COMMONERS.

Pernah tak, dalam satu hari, korang rasa sangap yang teramat sangat?
Pernah tak?
Hari ni adalah hari sangap sedunia aku...
Huaaaaaaa...........

Satu ketika dulu....

"Bukan saya pakcik, dia ni ha yang tumpahkan...." sambil menyinggul siku kawannya...
"Cakapla.... Ngaku la cepat....."
Sambil tunduk rasa bersalah, "saya yang tumpahkan, pakcik, saya minta maaf"
Sambil tersenyum, "takpe, pakcik maafkan, lain kali, ngaku je, kan senang"

Aku tersenyum kemenangan!

Every little thing you do is tragic
All my life, it was magic
Beautiful girl
I can't breath

I got a disease
Deep inside me
Makes me
Feel uneasy baby
I can't live without you
Tell me what I am supposed to do about it
Keep your distance from it
Don't pay no attention to me
I got a disease

Ignore

Entry: ignore
Function: verb
Definition: disregard
Synonyms: avoid, blink, brush off, cold-shoulder, cut, cut dead, dial out, discount, disdain, evade, fail, forget, high hat, ice, ig, live with, neglect, omit, overlook, overpass, pass over, play past, pooh-pooh, reject, scorn, slight, tune out, wink at

Aku la tu...
Rasa macam tak suka jer, ignore...
Lantak la situ...

Saja gatal tangan nak taip...
Update gak maaaaa....
Ehehehe....
Last nite was fun, thanks alot....
Lenkali blanje aaaa lagi eh?
Awak baik kan?

Aku tengok 13 Going On 30 tadi...
Series best citer nih...
And some more, aku memang suka Jennifer Garner, especially dalam ALIAS...
Aku nak tengok lagi la citer ni....
Mueheheheh.....

Aku series takde mood....
Tensen aaaaaaa camni....

Aku happy jumpa ko balik....
Aku happy kita leh borak cam dedulu....
Aku happy sangat.....

Diorang tu dengki, kan?
Tak tau erti PERSAHABATAN!
Sebab takde orang nak kawan ngan diorang...
Kan? Kan? Kan?
Miahahahahah......
Kita jahat kan?

When I think back, of all the things I've done to my life, myself....
I feel disgusted.....
Really really disgusted....
Especially this last 2 years....

Now I know....
Shoved it right to my face!
It struck me hard, real hard.......
BITCH!

Ello En. Ahmad Iswan....
Kata kawan baik aku?
Tapi ko sakit tak penah bgtau aku pun....
Baru semalam nak bersuara....
Tu pun aku tanya....
Kalo aku tak tanya, ntah bila baru ko nak bgtau......
Malu konon?
Sejak bila ko pandai malu ngan aku nih?
Kamon la Wan, kita kawan dah 4 tahun....
Ke, ngko dah takmo kawan ngan aku nih?

Esok ko banjer aku makan, aku banjer tiket wayang, ye?

Dah lama aku tak menulis panjang di sini...
Pendek sekadar untuk kefahaman aku sendiri...
Tapi hari ni, aku rasa cam nak menulis panjang.....

Hmmm....
Dulu mungkin aku simpan saja perasaan aku...
Aku tak puas hati, senyap....
Aku marah, senyap....
Aku rasa nak nangis, aku nyorok, aku nangis sensorang...

But now, no more.....
Aku rasa aku marah, aku marah je....
Aku tak puas hati, aku cakap....
Aku rasa nak nangis, aku nangis jer.....
Cukupla memendam rasa....
Letih....
Sakitnya kat dalam hati dan otak, aku....
Dulu, aku rasa bersalah sangat kalau hampakan orang....
Sekarang, gi mampusla....
Kalau aku dah kata tak boleh, tak bolehla....
Jangan paksa....
Anyway, selamat berhidup baru untuk aku....

So, Mr. Nostrum.....
Apa perasaan anda, mempunyai N-GAGE sendiri....
Malam ni leh la kita layan bluetooth balik....
Rindu aku nak layan bluetooth ngan ko.....
Jumaat nih kita gi ambik 256MB MMC, okay?

The more I think about it, the more I want to escape....
Arghhhhhhhhhh.........

How to escape, Chah?
Not even a bit!
Aiyooooo...........

Aku dah kata, main The Sims tu addictive....
Kan semua dah infected....
Mueheheheheh......
Apa lagi, go get your N-GAGE now!
Then kita leh lawan, sapa lagi SUPERIOR!

I WANT 256 MMC card rite now........
Ada sesiapa tak yang bermurah hati nak sedekah ke, belikan n hadiahkan kat aku ke?
Anyone?

Setakat ada MMC Card, tepon nyer takde, baik takyah....
Muahahahahhaha.............

Waaaaaa..........
Bila nak ber'bluetooth' balik ni, Mr. Nostrum?

:-D

I miss bluetooth'ing with Mr. Nostrum....
Muehehehehe.....

How come
We dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine
We even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you

Vote Jac and send to 33308!
Heh! I really admire her voice

Aku memang manja...
Dari kecik aku memang dimanjakan sangat....
Aku selalu dapat apa yang aku nak....
Tak pernah tak dapat....

Jadi sekarang, bila aku tak dapat benda yang aku nak, aku rasa nak marah, sedih, nak mengamuk, dan segala perasaan ni bercampur gaul....
Lalu akhirnya, aku menangis.....

Aku yang bodoh....
Dari mula aku tau aku takkan dapat, tapi aku masih terkejar kejar.....
Padan muka aku, menjeruk rasa sekarang...
Heh!

Aduhai.....

N-GAGE

Sepetang mengemas office....
Susun atur pun dah lain.....
Aku dah ke depan, jauh dari yang lain...
Kira macam receptionist la gitu....
Receptionist..... Muahahahahah.....

I want to end this.
I really do. Period.

Adam Daniel

To believe in love
Means you will not lose to yourself
Until your dream comes true
And I will be here
I want to be your sky
And envelope your sadness
Whenever you look up
You know you are not alone
Even if you are far away
You know you always have a place to come back to

37 Questions

1. What is your Full Name: Fasihatulhusna Rais
2. What are you listening to right now?: D12 feat. Eminem : How Come
3. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number: 43
4. what is your sign?: Cancer
5. What was the last thing you ate: Kit Kat White
6. If you were a crayon what colour would you be: Dark Blue
7. How is the weather right now: Nice
8. Last person you talked to on the phone: My brother in law
9. First thing you notice about the opposite sex: His eyes
10. How are you today: Feelin' good. Back to work after a month's off....
11. Favourite Drink: Milk.
12. Favourite Alcoholic drink: I don't drink 'em
13. Favourite Sport: Archery. It's considered a sport, rite? Hmmmmm........
14. Hair Colour: Black
15. Eye Colour: Dark Brown
16. Do you have tattoos: Nope, but would love to have one :)
17. Siblings: 1 elder brother, 3 sisters n 1 younger brother
18. Favourite Month: July
19. Favourite Food: Japanese
20. Favourite Day of the Year: My Birthday, what else.....
21. Are you too shy to ask someone out: No. But i seldom ask people out....
22. Summer or Winter: Both
23. Hugs or Kisses?: Hugs
24. Chocolate or vanilla?: Vanilla
25. Living Arrangements: Staying with my best friend
26. What books are you reading: None right now. Going to get one later.
27. What's on your mouse pad?: Im not using a mouse pad, hah!
28. Favourite Board Game: Monopoly
29. What did you do last night?: Nothing much, dinner n sleep.
30. Favourite Smells: Strawberry
31. Can you touch you nose with your tounge?: Almost there.... just a lil' bit more!
32. What inspires you? : Good music
33. Favourite Movie: Any movie with Bruce Willis in it, eheheheh......
34. Favourite Flower: Tulip
35. Who makes you laugh the most and why?: My lil' bro' coz he's so damn funny!
36. Where would you go for your next vacation?: An isolated island.
37. What is your dream job?: Become a radio DJ.

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.
At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
There are at least 2 people in this world that would die for you.
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you dont even know exists loves you.
When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look again.
Always remember the compliments you received.
Forget the rude remarks.

Aku rasa aku pernah letak benda yang sama kat blog nih....
Lantakla, aku dapat ni kat offline YIM aku....
Thanks ma fren, for this message.......

Lapar I 
 
parut bakaruncong kalaparan
sabar
ada lagi yang kalaparan dari aku
 
hati kada karuan
sabar
ada lagi yang kesusahan dari aku

 
Kejam sangatkah aku?
Aku sudah puas menangis....
Semua orang boleh berkata-kata....
Yang menanggungnya aku....
Aku seorang.....
Aku terpaksa keraskan hati aku.....
 
Aku nak dia hidup bahagia.....
Hidup yang sempurna....
Bukan aku tak boleh beri kepadanya, boleh....
 
Biarlah....
 
Dia tetap milik aku....
 

Dia
 
Adam 
09 07 04
5.29pm
2.75kg
 
Daniel
Senyum
seperti mengerti
di tapak tanganku

This Love - Maroon 5

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

Bukit Merah Laketown Resort....

DJ

Salam.....

Aku baru nak menang hadiah....
Sekali connection lak down....
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
Tensennya!!!!!!!!

Salam....

Adui, tetiba lak sakit lepas injection nih...
Tadi ok jer....
Lenguh gila bahu aku sebelah kanan nih...
Sakit aaaaaa..........

Jalan-jalan cari penat



Harini aku berkampung kat sini sampai 2nd July. Cam seronok kalau tuang dan tido jer :p

Salam.....

Uish, pedas gila cili api nih....
Berasap mulut aku...
Muehehehe.....

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Dedicated tou YOU, and only YOU!

Lil' bro...
Nothing more, nothing less....

Salam....

First of all, Happy Birthday to my friend, tOKSIK....
May Allah be with you always, my friend....

Aduh, pesal ngan bibir aku nih?
Infection apa lak nih?
Sakit dah pedih, nak bercakap pun takde mood....

Happy Birthday to me!

Salam....

Woh!
Kena food poisoning ke aku nih?

Salam.....

What a day....
Thank you so much!

Salam....

Aku rindu masa masa dulu....
Masa ada buaian kat bawah pokok rambai ngan pelam udang....
Sekarang, dedua pokok tu pun dah takde....
Apatah lagi buaian nya....

Malam tadi aku mimpi Poi ngan Yin....
Aku rindu budak duorang nih....
Diorang pun rindu aku gak kots....
Eheheheh.....

Bodo lar....

Salam....

Pedas melampau laksa nih...
Kesian perut aku...

Salam......

Hangat!

Salam......

Cam biasa, keje....
Takde yang menarik ari nih.....
Tali takde la, tu la pasal.....

WINGS - Perhentian

Cari perhentian di mana nak berhenti
Camar kesucian satu cinta abadi
Di mana dia
Sedang aku terlena

Aku yang terjatuh
Tercicir entah dimana
Hilang dalam jasad sendiri Oh.. Oh..
Aku yang mencuba
Cari dan kutip kembali
Ku basuh dengan pegaganku

Hari berganti masihkah aku di situ
Memerhatikan segala dalam pandangan
Kekaburan
Melihat diri sendiri

Salam......

Perutku sakit hari ni....

Salam.....

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Zura n Herries.....
Cam tak caya je Zura, dah jadik isteri orang...
Mueheheheh....
WALIMATUL URUS, ZURA!.....
2 tahun duk sesama, kat Seksyen 2...
Gi tapau makan, now, u r someone's wife...
Phewwww.....

Congratulation again....

Daniel.

Salam......

Hari ni baru aku berkesempatan menjelajah GMail...
Sekali dia boleh store 1 Gigabyte........
Free mail bagi 1 gig.....
Perghhhh.....
Salute!

Sekarang aku tengah terngadah ke langit
Berjalan di atas bintang-bintang
Bersembunyi dari bayang-bayangku sendiri
Yang sengaja ku tinggal di atas bukit
Barangkali tanganmu takkan lagi mengejarku
Untuk merenggut segenap hidupku
Aku yang sembunyi di bawah kulitku sendiri
Bila lagi akan mampu berdiri
Lihatlah kedua belah tanganku
Yang kini nampak mulai gementar
Sebab ada yang tak seimbang
Antara hasrat dan beban
Atau kerana jiwaku yang kini mulai rapuh
Gampang digoncangkan angin
Lihatlah bilik di jantungku
Denyutnya tak rapi lagi
Seperti akan segera terhenti
Kemudian sepi dan mati

Dah lepas dah sekali Interzon....
So far, Alhamdulillah.......

So, Pali, Mohammad katanya....
Muehehehehe........

Salam..........

Interzon is going on smoothly....
Alhamdulillah.....

Although there's some tiny weeny thing...
But its acceptable, ain't it....
New thing, so, some problem of course will occur....
But all in all, everything is fine....

Watch it this 2nd June, 21:00 hours, Wednesday, RTM2....
Don't miss it!

Selesema + batuk = Ketidakselesaan yang melampau...

Arghhhh........

Salam...........

Apa aku buat kat opis kat opis hari Ahad....
Keje la, takkan swimming kot?
Mende laaaaa.........

Hey Mama
This that shit that make you groove mama
Get on the floor and shake your booty mama
We're the blast master blastin' up the jamma
so shake your bambama, come on now mama....

...

di bumi yang berputar
pasti ada gejolak
ikuti saja iramanya
isi dengan rasa

di menara langit
halilintar bersabung
aku merasa tak terlindung
terbakar kegetiran

...

Salam....

What a relief.....

Kalo aku taip urup A jer, kira update tak?

Salam....

It's been a while i haven't whining, complaining and etc. in here, ain't it?
Today is the day....

KLD.... Huwaaaa.....
I didn't get the chance to join it....
Kak G... Huna pun nak join jugakkk....
I am very disappointed....
I bet everybody who joined is having a ball rite now....
Me?
Still here, writing my blog, in front of the PC in the office...
HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

What happen to my grammar?
To hell with it!

Aku dapat SMS ni malam tadi....

Shortest word is I
Sweetest word is MISS
cutest person is YOU

I MISS YOU TOO.... ALOT!
You know who you are....

Salam.....

Aku cukup tak boleh terima....
Domain pun tak tau?
Adui laaaa.....

DOMAIN

Technically, a domain name is a humanly understandable 'label' for an otherwise unintelligible series of numbers called IP addresses.

IP addresses, and their corresponding domain name equivalents are unique.

Every connection on the world wide web does so by communicating to specific IP addresses on that web. No two connections can have the same IP address (so it's quite a big number!) and similarly, no two addresses could therefore have exactly the same domain name.

203.99.155.86 is a meaningless number to most people. macdonalds.com (the domain name equivalent) has far more meaning.


Got it?

Salam.....

Alamak! Idea aku tetiba ilang....
Uish... camana nih?

Salam...

2 Years already, huh?
Cool...

Check this out... elikopter ...

Salam....

Kompom dia dah tau...
Aku dah terasa dah, mesti yg sorang lg tu suruh tanya....
Takmo la nangis-nangis....
Aku ok.... Kan aku kuat.... Ehehehe....

Aku dah tak larat nak nangis sebenarnya....

Salam.....

Penat je aku pegi tadi, sekali tutup la pulak...
Cam cilakak tul, la......

Salam.........

I almost forgot to write something here today....
Now that I remember, so there....

;)

I'm walking on a straight line...
But in the end, i still come across the same thing....
How?

I'm happy today.....
I love you so much!

Salam.....

How small the world is.....
Pusing pusing..... balik balik.... ituuuuuu jugak....
Hmmmm.........