Alahai....
Dua kali dah aku try, tak boleh gak...
Kulir dah aku...
Hehehehehehe....

Boleh tanya pendapat aku pasal benda yang kompom buat aku sakit hati...
Dah hilang akal ke?
Melampau sungguh...
Ingat aku takde perasaan ke?
Baru sehari lak tuh...
Memang saja nak trigger aku nyer red button...
BODOH!

COOL!

YEAY!

Kimi no te de kirisaite Tooi hi no kioku wo Kanashimi no iki no ne wo tometekure yo Saa Ai ni kogareta mune wo tsuranuke	Cleave apart the memories of those faraway days with your hands End the breath of sadness Come on, pierce through my chest made anxious by love
Asu ga kuru hazu no sora wo mite Mayou bakari no kokoro moteamashiteru Katawara no tori ga habataita Doko ka hikari wo mitsukerareta no ka na	Looking at the sky in which the tomorrow will come, I don't know what to do with my heart that is only lost Birds by my side flew away- I wonder if they found light somewhere
Naa Omae no se ni ore mo nosetekurenai ka? Soshite ichiban takai toko de okizari ni shite yasashisa kara toozakete	Come now, won't you let me ride on your back, too? Then keep far away from the kindess that I deserted at the highest place
Kimi no te de kirisaite Tooi hi no kioku wo Kanashimi no iki no ne wo tometekure yo Saa Ai ni kogareta mune wo tsuranuke	Cleave apart the memories of those faraway days with your hands End the breath of sadness Come on, pierce through my chest made anxious by love
Tori wo yuuyami ni miokutta Chi wo hau bakari no ore wo kaze ga nazeru Hane ga hoshii to wa iwanai sa Semete chuu ni mau MELISSA no ha ni naritai	I saw off birds into the dark evening, the wind strokes the me who merely crawls the ground I won't say that I want wings; I want to become melissa leaves dancing in midair, at least
Mou Zuibun to tachitsukushite mita kedo Tabun kotae wa nai no darou Kono kaze ni mo iku ate nado nai you ni	I've already tried to keep standing many times But that's probably not the answer, right? 'Cause then I won't go against this wind
Kimi no te de kagi wo kakete Tamerai nado nai daro Machigatte mo Nidoto aku koto no nai you ni Saa Jou no ochiru oto de owarasete	Take the key with your hands, you won't be hesitating, right? Even if you were wrong, if it seems that it'd never open again Come on, end it with the sound of a lock falling
Sukui no nai tamashii wa nagasarete kieyuku Kieteyuku shunkan ni wazuka hikaru Ima Tsuki ga michiru yoru wo umidasu no sa	A soul that cannot be saved drifts and disappears In the instant it vanishes, it shines faintly Now, it creates a night with a full moon

Giler mengantuk aku ari nih...
Ni semua penangan Fantastic 4 malam tadi la nih...
Tah apa aku merapu ari nih, aku pun tak tahu...

Rain, rain on my face
It hasn't stopped, raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly i become, one with the mud.

Wah, tanda tanda awal selesema bakal menyerang sudah kelihatan...
Hidung wa dah terasa panas...
Tekak wa dah perit semacam...
Takleh jadik nih...
Punah jugak harapan wa karang...
Balik nih kene carik milidon...
Ni pun kawan wa yang suggest...

Esok jadik tua, ahaks....

I wanna indulge myself today...
Sky is the limit!
Wanna know hows the air, up here?
Ihiks....

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

Aku 'ter'ponteng kerja semalam...
Hehehehe....
Serius tak larat langsung nak bangun dari tidur...
Aku hanya mampu bukak kelopak mata untuk tengok jam, then tido balik...
Bila aku sedar bebetul, aku tengok jam dah pukul 12.30 tengahari...
Memang tak cukup kerja aku, kalau aku gagahkan jugak diri aku pegi keje...
Maka, aku ponteng keje semalam...
Ehehehehe...
Sorry...
Aku tak pernah buat camni...
And I can assure you, it will never happen again in the future...

Ok, accomodation dah 60% confirm...
100% je, terus beli tiket esok.

Awwww man!
Thank you so fucking much for the nu background...
Nice surprise...
So damn fucking nice...

I opened it this morning, and wallaaa...
NU BACKGROUND!
Which got my boyfriend picture in it...
U can't stop me saying that Ichigo is my boyfriend...
NO ONE CAN.
I know u won't, anyway...
Hehehehe...
Obsessed?
Whatever!

I'm so excited.
YEAY!

yozora o miage hitori houkiboshi o mita no isshun de hajikete wa kiete shimatta kedo anata no koto omou to mune ga itaku naru no ima sugu aitai yo dakedo sora wa tobenai kara	I looked up alone at the night sky and saw a comet In an instant it began and vanished completely but It reminds me of you, and my chest begins to hurt I want to see you right now, but I can't fly through the sky
moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba sora kakenuke tonde iku, donna ashita ga kite mo ko no omoi wa tsuyoi dakara houkiboshi zutto kowarenai yo	If maybe I'd been able to become a comet I would run flying through the sky No matter what kind of tomorrow comes, this thought will be strong So this comet is completely indestructable
ame ga futte iyada to boyaiteita toki ni anata ga itta koto ima demo oboeteru ame no ato no yozora wa kirei ni hoshi ga deru sore o kangaeru to ame mo suki ni nareru yo ne to	Rain's falling and it's miserable, and when it hazes over Any time now, I'll be remembering what you said In the night sky after the rain, a star emerges beautifully And I figure I can fall in love with the rain
moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba afureru hikari furasu yo itsumo kanashii toki yozora miru anata ga egao ni naru youni motto kagayakitai	If, maybe, I'd gotten the chance to be a comet I'd overflow and spill light, always When you're sad, you looking at the night sky Makes me want to sparkle more, like you as you break into a smile
anata wa itsumo hitori nanika to tatakatteru soba ni iru koto shika atashi ni wa dekinai kedo	You're always fighting something by yourself I can't be that thing by your side, but...
moshi atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba sora kakenuke tonde iku kitto kanarazu todoku ko no isshun no hikari de anata no IMA terashi sora o megurou atashi ga houkiboshi ni nareta naraba kitto soba ni ite ageru, donna toki mo	If maybe, just maybe, I had the chance to become a comet I would surely rush to fall from the sky Beyond a doubt, I would reach you on this moment's light Let's wrap your "now" around the shining sky If I'd gotten the chance to be a comet Definitely, I'd be by your side for all time

Full lyrics, yeay!..
Arigato...

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de	Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
tsunaida kimi no te wo	Your hand that I held...
itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte kimi wo mitsuke dasu	Will we lose it someday? I want to protect you and that disappearing smile The ringing voice that calls me dries out Even if it gets erased by the wind along time I will find you
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro	Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
sabikitta hito no you ni	Like a rusted person
kasanari au dake ga munashikute hitori de ikite ikerutte itta arifureta yasashisa kotobajya ima wa mou todokanai hodo ni kimi wa uzukidasu	It felt so hollow to just pile atop one another You said you could live on your own Just with the usual kind words You ache to a point where I cannot reach you
tsunai da kimi no te wa nanigenai yasashisa wo motome Do you remember itami wo shiru koto de hito ni yasashiku nareru kara Drive your Life	Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindness Do you remember By learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to others Drive your Life
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro	Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
How can I see the meaning of life kieteku you're the only. . .	How can I see the meaning of life Disappearing, you're the only. . .
kowarenai you ni to hanarete iku kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de ima wa by and by mie nakuttatte subete ni imi ga aru kara kesenai kako mo seoi attekou ikiru koto wo nagedasanai de	So you will not break, you distance yourself from me Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people Now it's by and by, even if you cannot see, there's a meaning to everything Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life? You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . modoranai kedo	You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life? You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . though, we cannot return
hizunda kioku no you na toki no naka de itsuka wakari aeru kara	Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday

Alhamdulillah....
I'm so happy yesterday...
Thank you so much, Lennie...
For all your efforts, and your support...
Nanti, lepas ni bolehla aku bayar hutang ko kat Grand Bluewave tu..

And N91, YOU ARE MINE!
Muahahahaha....

You are a firestarter
Freakin' twisted firestarter

But thanks to you, now I realize
How fucking tiring it was being in the so called "considerate mode"
Damn tiring!
Thank you so much.
Very much.

Hahaha....
We are the evilest brother n sister around nowadays, kan kiddo kan?
Nak explanation?
Go to hell with that!
Never a person hurts me, like he did...
Damn, he hurts me so bad!

He deserve what we give him, kan kiddo kan?

CONTROL FREAK!
Aku still belum hilang akal lagi...
For the rest of my life?
I DON'T THINK SO!
Tunggu n lihat, ye?
Takpela, kita tunggu dan lihat aje la....

Tapi kalau setakat sms everyday, asking how am i doing, tu belum termasuk dalam kategori control freak lagi la...
Tu care namanya...

Berenang pun boleh sampai...
Dekat jer...
Tapi, macam terer sangat berenang pun...
Muahahahahah....

Malam tadi aku layan CSI Las Vegas first season...
Dari kul 3 petang, sampai kul 3 pagi.
Non stop...
Aku cuma berenti utk makan, solat dan mandi sahaja...
Tu pun tak abis lagi aku tengok...

Akhirnya, aku tengok gak citer Titanic ni sampai abis...
Tu pun sebab Lennie beria suruh aku tengok...
Setelah 8 tahun citer nih (citer ni kuar kat Mesia on 18/12/97), baru tadi aku tengok...
Selama ni aku tgk preview kat tv jer...
Tak pernah tengok cerita ni full...
Aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku takde desire pun nak tengok citer nih...
Mebbe sebab masa tu, citer ni macam over expose...
Muahahahaha...

Nape aku menulis cam typical malay yg poyo ari nih?
Is it because my considerate mode is kicking in?
kua kua kua....

Going to JB tomorrow...
Going to Best104, to be exact.
Bolehla jumpa DJ Riena, eheheh...
Dan bolehlah juga aku jumpa DJ Fieza yg si Yusri Cheras gila gilakan tuh...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAH.....

Apa jenis manusia dia nih, aku pun tak tau....
NO, I DON'T HAVE ANY SOFT SPOT FOR YOU ANYMORE...
Stop asking!

You dont even worth a single drop of tears from me....
Go to hell...
Go fuck your own ass!

Dah lama aku tak kene torture ngan fon calls macam ni....
Sungguh mencabar kesabaran....

bigfish.com.my dah takde....
Ada pulak dia punya descendants, aifa.com.my
Alahai....

I'm totally broke this month....
Flat!

Mana nak bayar umah lagi...
Arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Hehe....
Semalam aku ingat nak update, sekali sibuk duk layan borak ngan kawan aku, langsung tak ingat nak update...
Terus balik jer...

Semalam punya cerita...

Aku punyala malas tak hengat nak gi keje semalam....
Bangun kul 5.45, mandi n subuh...
Pastu aku tengok jam baru kul 6, aku pun baring la balik....
Terjaga kul 6.15, then 6.30....
Masa ni aku dah rasa malas yang amat sangat utk gi keje....
Pastu aku layan baring sambil layan mata aku, sampai kul 7.30...
Akibatnya... Aku sampai opis kul 9.30...
HAHAHAHAHA......

Am gonna end everything tonite...
I don't care anymore...
I've had enough...

I need timeout la...
Away from everything...

I'm not being suspicious o somting...
It's just precautions...
Wear the black hat, rite kiddo?

But the SMS, really got me...
Come on, its not like we never SMS each other more than a day...
What a lame excuse you give me...
I went to school also, you know...
I may look stupid, but I AM NOT!

Whatever it is, I wanna see how far he can go, kiddo...
The secret weapon, is still safe...
Don't worry...

What the fuck was i thinking last nite...
Typing n sending that SMS....
Bodohnya!

Aku jumpa adik kesayangan aku semalam...
Bukan akak tipu, tak beritahu je, kan kiddo kan?
Sama la ko jugak...
Bukan tipu akak, cuma tak cerita je...
Tapi akhirnya, cerita jugak ngan akak, keh keh keh.....
Kan akak dah cakap, u can tell me everything..
Anything at all...
Ok?
Ke ko dah tak sayang akak?
Oooooo.....
Berani ko tak sayang akak?

New environment, new horizon kot, Chah....
Dah lama sangat....
Dah berkulapuk dah...
Penat ah...
Setia pun bertempat....
Not forever kot.

Ingat, aku tulis untuk diri aku sendiri...
Sebab ada benda yang aku tulis kat dalam ni, aku takleh nak luah kat orang...

Cool....

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
brought to you by Quizilla


Kiddo, i think u have made the rite choice...
So, takyah nak pening pening lagi, okay?

You're becoming a nuisance lately...
Too much...
Leech...
Need to get rid of you...
FAST!

I can't take it anymore.....

Os, mana ko nih? Balikla...
Call aku ke, at least...
Please la....

Semalam aku layan sailormoon the whole day...
Sampai malam...
Puas hati aku....

Engkau siapa nak sms aku cerita pasal kesian?
Abis tu, apa cerita ngan ayah?
Tak kesian?
Kena upah kat orang sembur racun n tabur baja...
Ko sedap sedap makan duit sewa...
Lagi mau cerita pasal kesian ngan aku?
Go to hell, bitch!
I wish you burn in hell for eternity!

Sama la ngan Along jugak...
Tah apa yang dibuat duduk kat rumah dia tu...
Tinggalkan ayah ngan adik...
BODOH!

I started to hate her since i read that damn sms...
Mawar merah jambu kepala hotak ko!
BITCH!

Alahai...
Amnesia ke aku nih?
Nape takde idea nih?

Speaking of amnesia... teringat lak aku kat seseorang...
Kelakar la pulak bila ingat balik...
Sorry ye awak...

You Are a Snarky Blogger!

You've got a razor sharp wit that bloggers are secretly scared of. And that's why they read your posts as often as they can!

What kind of blogger are you?

Got that from Basrie

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh...
But you can never truly love someone till you find out what makes them cry...

Hmmmm..... This is interesting....
Eheh.....

Today is Teacher's Day..
Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers out there..
Speaking of teachers, the first thing came to mind is school...
Speaking of school, hmmm....

Tetiba terhimbau lak nostalgia lama masa sekolah dulu... Ada sorang cikgu nih, aku memang takkan lupa sampai bebila. Cikgu Jamaluddin. Aku tak ingat pulak nama bapak dia. Dia ni mengajar aku sejarah tingkatan 4 ngan 5.
Sekolah aku ni dulu, bebudaknya nakal yang amat sangat. Maka, setiap kelas, akan ada satu buku laporan, and buku ni, akan diisi oleh cikgu yang mengajar. Meaning, lepas habis je period cikgu tu mengajar, dia akan tulis report dalam buku tu, kalau ada budak ponteng kelas n stuff. Then, ada satu hari ni, aku bosan sangat ngan kelas dia. Ekceli, cikgu ni besh, kelakar nak mapuh, tapi hari tu, mood aku tah gi mana tah. So, disebabkan bosan, aku pun main la pisau lipat yg harga seposen kalau korang beli kat koop sekolah tu.
Aku main tarah tarah tepi meja, potong pemadam jadi kecik kecik, then letak kat pembaris, lentikkan pembaris, then tembak pemadam tu kat kawan aku. Memula aku tak perasan yg cikgu duk tengok je perangai aku. Pastu, bila dah abis masa dia ngajar, dia boleh tulis kat dalam buku report tu, dengan pen merah dan tulisan huruf besar "FASIHATULHUSNA MAIN PISAU!". Giler babeng cikgu nih.
Pastu esoknya, aku kene panggil ngan GPK1, pasal report yang cikgu tu tulis. Berasap jugakla telinga aku dengar syarahan GPK1. Mana tidaknya, men pisau dalam kelas, manala tak dapat syarahan percuma. Pehtu, aku cam tak puas hati la ngan cikgu ni kan, then aku confront dia, tanya pesal dia tulis camtu dalam report. Jawapan dia senang je "saya tak nak disalahkan kalau awak tercederakan diri awak sendiri". Cheh... Ampesss.

Maka berakhirlah kisah saya tentang seorang guru yang bernama Jamaluddin (tapi tak ingat nama bapanya).
Sekian, terima kasih.

Gentleman never tells...
Ever heard of that saying?
Guys, I have a piece of advice to give you...
To us, most girls, a guy who brags about their "BEDTIME STORY" is a HUGE NO, NO!
You definitely dont wanna go out with someone who will splurted out all the things that is suppose to be PRIVATE...
Suppose to be known only between the two of u...
Stupid la...
Do you think i give shit about what you do with your girlfriend?
Aiyoooooo.....
Why on earth la, I have a friend like you...
WHATEVER!

I've been thinking this two weeks...
I really need to let this go...
It's been 2 years...
Must let it go.

Giler penat...
Hari selasa balik kul 12....
Semalam pun balik sampai umah kul 12...
Mapuh jugak aku kalau this thing keeps going on...

5 missed calls?
Sorry luv, i was out praying....
How can i get back to u, and say sorry for not picking up the phone?
Go get a new phone, luv..
A.S.A.P

S700i or E680?
Hmmmm.....

Chah, ko kata aku racun?
Aku admit, aku memang notty....
Hahahaha....
Bukannya aku nak jumpa dia pun.....
Suicide kunun, cheh!
Ingat aku nak percaya?
Setakat sms, aku pun boleh....
Aku langsung tak percaya sepatah pun sms yg ko bagi kat aku....
Aku memang cruel, so what?

Just because one stupid tiny little thing, you are mad at me...
Sulking for the past 3 days....
Owh, for crying out loud, GROW UP!
You are not 13, add up another 10 years to it...

Thank god i have this to entertain me...

BIG RED BUTTON

In this world there's real and make believe...
And you seems real to me...
Are you?

John Butler Trio - Zebra

I could be loud man I could be silent
I could be young man or I could be old
I could be a gentleman or I could be violent
I could turn hot man or I could be cold
I could be just like the calm before the storm boy waiting for all hell yeah to break loose
I could be innocent or I could be guilty
Doesn't mean that I won't believe in the news so I'm singing

I could be rich like a wondering gypsy
I could be poor like a fat wallet lost
I could be the first man or I could come last
It's not who breaks the ribbon boy it's how you get across
I could be red blue black or white sunset as dark as a day boy or bright as a night
I could be the sun boy or I could be the moon
I made it from the stars boy I'm shining so bright so I'm singing

I could be asleep or i could be awake
I could be alive and a be the walking dead
I could be ignorant or I could be informed
I could lead my life man or I could be lead
I could be anything I put my mind to boy all I gotta do is be myself i have a chance
I could bring love back into my life
And share it with the world if I got some balance

He's married la, Chah.....
Dah ada anak sorang dah pun....

It's going to be a one man show la after this...
Kat kredit tu, kuar nama sorang je...
Kata handle semua, except for camera....
Hahahahahahah......

(Macam mana aku nak pau air diorang ni?)

"Joe.... joe..."
"Eh, aku ingatkan joe tadi"
"Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........."

Somewhere only WE know.

Love Me Butch
Love You Zulhelme

:)

Subhanallah....
2 bulan hilang, masuk lokap rupanya...
Suspek kes curi motor...
Hmmm....
I dont know what to say...
I'm speechless....

After 2 months, tetiba je muncul....
Mimpi apa?
Planet marikh berlanggar ngan bumi?
Aku call, tak angkat....
Aku sms, tak reply....
Pastu tanya nape aku senyap...
Bodoh ke, apa?

Today is my last day in Holiday Inn, Kuching..
I can't believe I'm in Kuching...
Hehe...
Bought some souvenirs for me frens and also for me love...
Signing off, coz me flight will be at 8.45 p.m
Tata, KUCHING!

Aku baca balik PM kat forum lelama dulu...
Aku simpan semuanya...
Kenangan di hari tua...

Kiddo...

Bila akak baca balik PM tu, mak aih, sakit sungguh hati akak....
Tapi kan, kiddo kan, life's funny, kan?
The table can turn in the blink of an eye...
Hmmmm....
Life goes on for the both of us, kan?
Ada nanti, ada la...
No hopes, aight?

Kenapa nak jadikan aku scapegoat?
Kalau kau dah dapat kije kat tempat lain, kenapa mesti jadikan aku alasan ko untuk berhenti?
What did I do to you?
Aku rasa aku takde wat pape pun....
Jahat sangat ke aku ni?
Ko buat aku rasa tak besh the whole day hari ni....
Nasib baik aku ada sorang adik kesayangan dan sorang sahabat yang amat baik...
Yang boleh membuat aku senyum dan ketawa kembali...

BITCH!

Kuching, here I come....

Aku tak tau nak tulis apa sebenarnya....
Speechless...
Dah 2orang aku beritahu, yg aku dah bosan...
Masuk 3 orang, mau jadi betul nih...
Aduhai....

Kenapa tak cuba?
Susah sangat ke?
Kan dah sedar sendiri, padan muka....

Kiddo.....

I really appreciate everything that you have done for me.
Thank you so much.
Thank you, really.
But this will never works. We won't work. There's no us here. There will never be us here. It's not you, it's me myself.
We better remain this way, kiddo. I am happy and you are too. I just don't wanna get hurt by you again.
EVER!
We have our own life from now on.
I love you, and I know you love me too.
But we can't be together.
And we both can't answer the question, right?
We both don't know why we can't be together.
We just can't.
Simple as that.
I've been telling myself all this while (after Japs, actually) that you are just a lil' bro, nothing more, nothing less.
That's why I was so mad at myself when I get jealous over your "dinda's" sms.
So stupid of me.
But then, I grab myself back
I remind myself, who you are actually in my heart.
But I manage to be the first person you say the three magic word in person.
You said "I LOVE YOU", to my face.
I'm great, aren't I?
I told you, i'm great.
Hahaha...
I'm the first.
And i'm very honored.
Very much honored.
I still remember the look on your face when we first met.
You didn't expect me to be me, huh?
Kiddo, this is me.
This is who I am.
What you hear and read is what you get.
You think i'm gonna be cold as a rock after I saw you?
Man, how wrong you are.
I want you to see ME.
The real ME.
Not someone else.
And that is why I said to you, just be yourself.
You, not someone else!.
Whatever it is, I love you.
So much.
And you love me too, right?
Kan kiddo, kan?
Sayang akak, kan?
We will see each other again, kiddo.
Don't worry.
This is one thing that I promise you.
And, I still owe you a pillow, kan?
;)

Itsumo sasaete kureru hito tachi ni
Higoro no omoi o ko meta Rhapsody
Appreciation na kimochi otodoke
Itsumo arigato
Honto arigato
Tatoe doko ni itatte kimi no sonzai ni kansha shiteru yo

For the people who always hold me up
I put my daily thought into this Rhapsody
Deliver my feelings of appreciation
Thanks for always
Thanks, for real
No matter where you are, I'm grateful for your presence

Arghhhhh.......
Langkawi....
Atmosphere....

HELP!

"Mak, kenapa mak tak pakai ubat yang semalam tu?"
"M A N D I.... tak mandi..."
(Owh, nak pakai ubat tu, kene mandi dulu rupanya...)
"Mak kene mandi ke, baru bolah pakai ubat tu?
(insert laughing with all your heart out here)
"Eh, bukan adik tanya mak memula tadi camana nak eja mandi, ke?"
"Mana ada, adik tanya nape mak tak pakai ubat jer..."
(Insert laugh till you cry here)
"Alaaaa adik ni, kan tu mak dah malu ngan acik"
"Hahahah.... tah hape hape tah mak ni. Mana ada adik tanya camana nak eja mandi..."

I almost die from laughing too much last nite...
Aduhai...
Memacam la kakak aku nih....

I left my body lying somewhere in the sand of time....

Well, hello there my lovely MOOD....
You really love that SWING, don't you?
No wonder you don't have the intention to ever get down from it...
Any hint?

Penat
AMAT PENAT!

Tapi aku enjoy........

ROBOTS....
Here i come!

Kalau dah selalu sangat buat hati aku sakit, lelama akan jadi immune...
Kalau aku dah immmune, maknanya aku akan ignore kau....
Kalau dah ignore, aku akan despise la jawabnya....
Pastu, kalau dah despise, in the end akan jadi salah aku....
Salah aku ke?
Who started it?

Uishhh...
Penat gila...

My Idol is on Interzon today..
The very first Malaysian Idol...
JACLYN VICTOR!

HRC last Saturday....
Really enjoy it...
So much!
I love you so much!

Watched Hide N Seek yesterday with me best pren...
The story is not bad, but not up to my standard la kot for a thriller...
Very slow.... Sekali pun takde buat aku terkejut...
Not recommended at all... Pastu, a bit spoiler gak la, sebab cerita tak abis lagi, dah tau conclusion..
Dalam bebanyak citer yang basic dia pasal MPD or now also known as Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) nih, takleh lawan Identity gak la....
Citer tu memang the superior!

INTERZON

Hmmmm......
Are those just a reasons to escape?
Or to use me up fully?

I need a vacation...
BADLY!

Im not sure bout this anymore...
Hmmmm.... I smell something fishy..
But it's okay, i wanna see how far this will go...
And who will end it...
Hopefully it will never ends....
Hopefully this is the last...

Aku rasa tak besh la hari ni....
Aku dah tak tau nak komen apa sebenarnya...
All we can do is talk, and listen to you...
The rest, its your life, its your choice...
You make the decision....
If you need advice, me n Icha will always be there...
I promise with all my heart...
Aku sayang ko, sayang sangat sangat....
Bear that in mind....
5 years, and after everything, i'm still here, kan?

So careless my mind state
But it's not my state of mind..

Want to put my tender heart it in a blender
Watch it spin round to a beautiful oblivion

Life is wonderful...

I am 50% Asshole/Bitch.

I am abrasive, some people really hate me, but there may be a group of other tight knit assholes and bitches that I can hang out with and get me. Everybody else? Fuck `em.

Take the
Asshole/Bitch Test
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Wonderful.

Ada orang tanya, nape tajuk blog aku weirdo...
Weird sangat ke aku nih?
Ntahla, aku pun tak tau nak jawab camana....
Tapi most of my friends cakap aku ni weird...
Even ada sorang classmate aku nih, masa study, kata aku ni alien....
Dia kata cara aku bercakap macam alien, cam bukan makhluk hidup kat bumi
Muahahahahha......

Earthlings to Q..
Earthlings to Q
Do you copy?

Confirm, we're moving out from here...
Most probably next week.....
Hmmmm......

This is my shoe...
And it only fits me....
Don't bother trying it on....
Thank you!

Heard bout the news last Monday actually....
Looking for Streamyx open port in that place....
We're moving out from here...
To Alam Megah, Seksyen 28, Shah Alam..
What?
Aw, come on....
Not there....
Pwease....

I'm not your typical malay girl next door..
Hahah!
Yes I'm different..
Indeed I AM!
I'm one of a kind...
And being a typical is not an option
Not for me, that is....

But hey, i can be considerate at times...
And i lurveeee learning things the hard way
Like what my beloved brother in law said to me...
When things is wayyyyy out of the control....
Hehe...
But i can be those cute lil' fairy
Flippin' wings on the flower
In your backyard garden..
You just have to know the way..
Way how you can turn me to those lil' fairy...
I won't tell you how..
Go figure!

Things are gonna change
And not for better
Don't know what it means to me
but it's hopeless, hopeless...

Got to get you home
Could be with anyone
Think of what I've done, uh
You know it all

Everything is everything
Everything is everything
The more I talk about it
The less I do control
Everything means EVERYTHING
Can't understand a word
Half of the stuff I'm sayin'

The things I do possess
Sometimes they own me too
What they gonna do to me?
It's hopeless, hopeless...

What I can't explain
I'm sure you'll get it well
Since I always wanted
I always wanted you

Everything is everything
The more I talk about it
The less I do control
Everything means EVERYTHING
Can't understand a word
Half of the stuff I'm sayin'

Riding low, riding low, riding faster
If this is what I want
Look at what it did to me
Riding low, riding low, riding faster
If this is what you want
This is what you get instead
**
Everything is everything
The more I talk about it
The less I do control
Everything means EVERYTHING
Can't understand a word
Half of the stuff I'm sayin'

Riding low, riding low, riding faster
The more I talk about it
The less I do control
Riding low, riding low, riding faster
Can't understand a word
Half of the stuff I'm sayin'

Cuti aku dihabiskan dengan bermalas-malasan di kampung....
Aku rasa besh sangat.....
Aku happy....

Aku harap ianya berkekalan...
Sampai bila bila...

I love you, I really do...
Okkk owwww.... I'm in love!

Aku happy hari ni.....

Aduhai....
Phone call tak berenti.....
Ramai sangat ke yang apply nak masuk MRSM nih?
Non-stop.....
Aku letak gagang jer, bunyik tepon...
Aku letak lagi, bunyik lagi....
Letih la wei......

This morning, on my way to work, i saw this flower that reminds me of my childhood planted along the highway. I don't know what's the name of the flower, but us, Saiful, Yin and me, we called it 'bunga pukul sepuluh'. This is because, the flower is in full bloom at approximately 10 o'clock in the morning. When i was little, (at the age of 9, not so little, i guess), me, saiful and yin will wait for the flowers to bloom. This is because, when it blooms, there will be bees flying around the flower, to suck all the honey the flower has. (SUCK, hahahaha!). Then, we will quietly walk to the flower, and closed all it's petal. Then, we will pluck the flower with the bee trapped inside the petal.

We will bring the flower close to our ear, to hear the buzzing of the bee inside it. Then, after a few minutes, when the buzzing is almost gone, we will open all the petal and let the bee fly. It's fun to see the bee fly away, in it's dizziness... Call me cruel (or even you can call the SPCA, i don't care), but hey, it's fun. It seriously is!

Grammar getting worse each day..
Hahah!

Vampire Princess Miyu

Went to have me lunch at Carrefour this afternoon...
Me have KFC for me lunch.....
Me met this muthafucka cashier at KFC....
This godamn muthafucka cashier....
Seriously tick me off...
Very slow service, and very slow response....
VERY, VERY SLOW!
Me have to repat twice, to tell him that me want strawberry drink...
And he still fill up the cup with Pepsi
Dumbass!
Retarded dumbass cashier!
Took him almost 10 minutes to get me order ready...
Hello, me ain't got all day!
Me only have 1 hour for me lunch break!
Me think he likes his manager, who happens to be a GUY...
His eyes follows everywhere his manager went....
Hello, you are working now, not flirting....
If you wanna drag, wait till the nite comes, aight?
Now, gimme me order!
Me hungry!
Me need food!

Me very angry today!
Me need to go to Alaska to cool down....

Went shopping with the very best friend of mine last Saturday....
Bought a pair of jeans and a t-shirt....
And lurveeee them both very much......
Indulging myself with good food and good entertaiment....
Hahahaha....
At least i know where my salary went to...

Adik kesayangan aku gi interview tadi.....
Gila menggelabi mamat nih....
Sekali, kene post poned ari Ahad....
Muahahahahahaha.....
All the best this Sunday, kiddo....
Love ya'

Aku malas nak bersuara atau memberi komen apa apa sebenarnya....
Tetapi apabila cerika kami sudah in sync (bukan boy band 'nsync)
Aku jadi marah, dan sakit hati yang amat sangat....
Sekarang semua sudah clear...
CRYSTAL!

Jangan assume, kalau tak tahu, tanya...
Nanti rasa bersalah yang melilit diri.....

Ingat ni Q, ingat ini selalu....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha semua.....

Esok balik kampung, boleh bermalas malasan sebab kakak aku 2 orang balik....
Maka, jadi puteri di balik awan la aku gayanya....
Muahahahahahahahahahahahah............

YOU smoke
Am I suppose to choke?

Ahahahahahhahahaha.......

all these times ...
others saying mean nothing ...
it's your life ... never been them ...
never ...

just be yourself ...

Giler buhsan aku hari nih, sensorang jer kat opis nih...
Jawabnya, kul 5 aku dah blah ar....
Muahahahahahahahha.....

Satgi balik, wa nak layan prosperity lagi la...
Ekekekekeke.....

Sedap giler kopok Super Ring nih...
Alaaaaaa.... Apollo aku dah lemau...
Huhuhuhuhu.....

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